Livingwithoutlivin
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I feel so down , so unable to do anything, that it's like I am cursed. Every time I go out in public I feel anxious and embarrassed, and I always make the cashiers and employees at stores feel nervous and fret as I do. I don't like it. It's like unintentionally I am make all these people feel bad. At my last job I did the same thing too. It's this contagious thing and I want to protect people from it. I bought 5HTP yesterday, and at first I thought it was working, but today I'm sure it's not. Cause I went out to buy a couple things and I was super anxious, constantly rubbing or covering my mouth area and shading my eyes, so people would not notice. I feel like I walk around with a dark cloud. My worst enemy is my thoughts. If I start imaging an unfavorable scenario, it ends up happening. It's like what I think comes true. It sucks so bad. I wish I was the person who didn't have these issues ever. I need help, but I don't think I can get out of this just yet. Please somebody tell me how I can get disability or social security for this. It's unbearable. Sometimes I just want to die. Not even the thought of giving up on caring what other people think of me, makes this anxiety go away. Please tell me how to do it. I don't know if I can get my psychoanalyst at school to prescribe me drugs, but if so, can somebody tell me if it's possible for me to get them for free? I really need help. I want Xanax or something, I need anything.