Hero
Well-known member
7th July 2011
My acquantiance facebooked me, asking me if I wanted to come to a club with him and maybe some others, and said I could stay at his as the last train as very early. I was quite excited as my social life is pretty much like the dinosaurs.
I got on the train to town, and phoned him up to see where he was. His phone was off which really annoyed me.
The thought of paying to go in the club, and roaming amongst so many people to find him, filled me with anxiety. I would feel people would be watching me, laughing at me. "Look at that sap, he's all by himself" etc
I couldn't know for sure if he was in the club or not? I left him a message and rung him a few more times. But no response. You had to pay money to get in the club, but I didn't want to take the risk, and find out he didn't even get there in the first place. So I sat around in the cold, maybe he would come out, or he was late and I would bump into him. I was getting cold, I felt a chilly breeze annoy my arms.
I went inside the entrance and asked the door person, this blonde haired, multi-piercing'd girl, for a big favour, if she could let me in so I could check if my friends were there, then come straight back, and if he was there, I'd happily pay. She flatly said 'no'. I told her I'd leave my wallet and phone with and I'd be right back. She said 'no that's not possible' so I asked why. She said "it was the rules." I grumpily just left, I could see myself get annoyed with her robotic like personality and I wasn't going to win.
I decided to get the last train back. I put my face in my hands and began to weep. I know you're thinking, this is just one night, don't cry like a baby. But I'm so sick of this. Endless let-downs and me having no idea what the **** is happening. I just want real friends, just to watch movies with or something. I can't stomach this life alone with no friends nor family, I feel like my despair is eating me up from the inside. None of this half-hearted confusion anymore, please.
My acquantiance facebooked me, asking me if I wanted to come to a club with him and maybe some others, and said I could stay at his as the last train as very early. I was quite excited as my social life is pretty much like the dinosaurs.
I got on the train to town, and phoned him up to see where he was. His phone was off which really annoyed me.
The thought of paying to go in the club, and roaming amongst so many people to find him, filled me with anxiety. I would feel people would be watching me, laughing at me. "Look at that sap, he's all by himself" etc
I couldn't know for sure if he was in the club or not? I left him a message and rung him a few more times. But no response. You had to pay money to get in the club, but I didn't want to take the risk, and find out he didn't even get there in the first place. So I sat around in the cold, maybe he would come out, or he was late and I would bump into him. I was getting cold, I felt a chilly breeze annoy my arms.
I went inside the entrance and asked the door person, this blonde haired, multi-piercing'd girl, for a big favour, if she could let me in so I could check if my friends were there, then come straight back, and if he was there, I'd happily pay. She flatly said 'no'. I told her I'd leave my wallet and phone with and I'd be right back. She said 'no that's not possible' so I asked why. She said "it was the rules." I grumpily just left, I could see myself get annoyed with her robotic like personality and I wasn't going to win.
I decided to get the last train back. I put my face in my hands and began to weep. I know you're thinking, this is just one night, don't cry like a baby. But I'm so sick of this. Endless let-downs and me having no idea what the **** is happening. I just want real friends, just to watch movies with or something. I can't stomach this life alone with no friends nor family, I feel like my despair is eating me up from the inside. None of this half-hearted confusion anymore, please.
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