I have spent an entire lifetime chained by my Social anxiety. It began in childhood I felt different to everyone else I grew up in a very large family of which I am the youngest my father was an alcoholic and money was always an issue my mother was 45 years old when I was born and we were never really close. As a child I was always in the way always being told to leave one room or another and I felt like I didn’t fit in even with my family group. During my teens and Twenties I made my own way in life and for a time my anxiety was under control I had my three children and life was relatively normal and I was generally happy. In my thirties as my children grew older and less dependant on me I felt the anxiety return I knew the social fears I felt were unreasonable but I allowed my self to withdraw from the world further and further. my life as a child began to haunt me. I asked myself why would anyone treat a child in the manner I had been treated ? What was wrong with me that I was unloved? I began to analyse everything everyone said to me any little rejection I took totally onboard and allowed it to eat at my soul.
Now I live with my youngest child she is twelve years old and I fear my social anxiety will affect her as its affected me so I know I need to change but I don’t know how I need help!
Now I live with my youngest child she is twelve years old and I fear my social anxiety will affect her as its affected me so I know I need to change but I don’t know how I need help!