chaosshade
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*takes a deep breath* I have a lot of problems... I'll try to list them off in an orderly fashion in hopes that you guys can help me feel better... or at least offer some relief of some fashion.
Depression - I find myself depressed, sleeping weird hours and doubting myself at every turn. I haven't quite gotten to wanting to kill myself on a regular basis, but I do have days that I contemplate walking out into traffic.
Eating Disorder - Usually going hand-in-hand with depression, I find myself unable to eat quite frequently. It's not that I'm afraid I'm fat, in fact, I know I'm way under weight for my height, but I have days I can't even force myself to eat... I'm 6' 3" (190.5cm) and I weigh around 120lbs (54.4kg) I usually get really horrible stomach aches when I eat and I think I'm afraid of that preventing me from doing anything I enjoy. Possibly coupled with this is very severe heartburn.
Technophile - Possibly the worst of my problems, I can't live without my PC or even a small electronic device like a Nintendo DS in hand. All my friends are online and I feel like I can't be away from them ever. I find myself spending a lot of money to repair or upgrade my computer when something goes wrong with it.
Afraid of getting a Job - I think this is related to my technophilia, I don't want to change my routine or be away from my computer. I've been struggling for nearly six years to get a second job. I found one at Target working on the loading dock, but I hurt my back doing it and was subsequently forced to quit.
Afraid of Social Interaction - I feel like this is somehow the blanket reason for all of the above; I can't stand people, especially the people I know. I lost touch with all my friends from high school and my girlfriend dumped me a few years ago (that was a mess...) so I've spent a lot of time alone in my bedroom spending time on my computer. There's a social-ish thing I usually attend that's basically a gathering of gamers, but I wouldn't really call those people "my friends," they're more like an annoying group of people I sometimes waste time with.
I think I've covered what I need help with, please leave some messages, okay?
Depression - I find myself depressed, sleeping weird hours and doubting myself at every turn. I haven't quite gotten to wanting to kill myself on a regular basis, but I do have days that I contemplate walking out into traffic.
Eating Disorder - Usually going hand-in-hand with depression, I find myself unable to eat quite frequently. It's not that I'm afraid I'm fat, in fact, I know I'm way under weight for my height, but I have days I can't even force myself to eat... I'm 6' 3" (190.5cm) and I weigh around 120lbs (54.4kg) I usually get really horrible stomach aches when I eat and I think I'm afraid of that preventing me from doing anything I enjoy. Possibly coupled with this is very severe heartburn.
Technophile - Possibly the worst of my problems, I can't live without my PC or even a small electronic device like a Nintendo DS in hand. All my friends are online and I feel like I can't be away from them ever. I find myself spending a lot of money to repair or upgrade my computer when something goes wrong with it.
Afraid of getting a Job - I think this is related to my technophilia, I don't want to change my routine or be away from my computer. I've been struggling for nearly six years to get a second job. I found one at Target working on the loading dock, but I hurt my back doing it and was subsequently forced to quit.
Afraid of Social Interaction - I feel like this is somehow the blanket reason for all of the above; I can't stand people, especially the people I know. I lost touch with all my friends from high school and my girlfriend dumped me a few years ago (that was a mess...) so I've spent a lot of time alone in my bedroom spending time on my computer. There's a social-ish thing I usually attend that's basically a gathering of gamers, but I wouldn't really call those people "my friends," they're more like an annoying group of people I sometimes waste time with.
I think I've covered what I need help with, please leave some messages, okay?
, I'm afraid of getting a job too, I'm afraid because of the interaction with others but mainly because I know I'll try and quit because my anxiety gets the best of me. Also with the whole social interaction thing, I completely understand, I really don't like people at all because it seems like I can never relate to them either that or they hurt me in some way. To try and help I can say that your not alone and you can always come to me or this site to help you feel better. Have you tried talking to a psychologist about it? Maybe you should try to find things you like to do such as something active like sports , Those help me when I'm down. 
