liquidframe
New member
I just joined up here tonight and as crazy as it might seem, the hell I have lived in since I can remember has always been difficult to understand or explain. I am 30 now, I had tons of friends that I eventually stopped calling, went through now 3 great relationships with amazing women that couldn’t cope with compounded years of it, saw all sorts of physiologists and psychiatrists and was on a few drugs for a short period of time. I was diagnosed with everything from mild schizophrenia to OCD to depression and so on, yet only those close to me after really taking a look and being around me for a long period of time could see it. I could act my way through it with ease (what I didn’t secretly avoid that is) as I was brought up to not be weak, or never let anyone know you are handicap at anything at all costs. I found that how you worded what you told an individual that was ‘treating’ you would change the drug 'fix'. So to me it was all bullshit from the start in terms of help. Though, I can't state that refusing 'science proven' methods or rejecting anyone’s help did either. Which I guess is why I find myself here now on this forum. To say hello to the few people that actually can understand PS or PA, the condition or whatever you want to call it. The terms don't really seem to make it easier to those that don't experience or understand it anyways. So hello to all of you and hello to not being in denial anymore, I just need to have a network of people that actually understand this without a textbook or medical journal in there hand.
I am an abstract artist (pen & ink), photographer, laser engraver, graphic designer and have other creative outlets. But most importantly I am a human being before anything else that still lives in fear socially and it is still is not fun to deal with to put it lightly.
It becomes too hard to hide it after a while, avoiding, secret excuses and all because of something hardly anyone can really grasp unless they actually have the 'condition'. It’s not all in my head, all of you just proved that one to me just in reading a few posts. So thanks to all of you that joined here for me to find out I am not alone.
Sorry for the long introduction, I could go on and on but I won't...
~Liquidframe
I am an abstract artist (pen & ink), photographer, laser engraver, graphic designer and have other creative outlets. But most importantly I am a human being before anything else that still lives in fear socially and it is still is not fun to deal with to put it lightly.
It becomes too hard to hide it after a while, avoiding, secret excuses and all because of something hardly anyone can really grasp unless they actually have the 'condition'. It’s not all in my head, all of you just proved that one to me just in reading a few posts. So thanks to all of you that joined here for me to find out I am not alone.
Sorry for the long introduction, I could go on and on but I won't...
~Liquidframe
