andra
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Hello there. My name is Andra I am 15, and I think I have mild/moderate social phobia. I think I've always been like this... I am extremely insecure about my looks and personality. I'm afraid that people will not like me or think badly of me. I have a really rough time meeting new people and making friends, even though I do have a couple of friends with whom i feel very comfortable with. When I have to talk or read in class I get very anxious, my heart starts racing, I get shaky, butterflies in my stomach, I blush, studder and so on.
Other people's opinions affect me deeply. They affected me so much, they made me dump my boyfriend ( I cared a lot about him, maybe even loved ) because he had a pretty bad acne. I met him in school and I had a crush on him ever since (for about a year or so). Then I got prettier I suppose because he finally noticed me. We were together for a while, and when spring break came I dumped him. At first I thought I did the right thing. But now I saw him again at school and i don't know anymore.
Anyway, I thought about seeing a specialist. Get some help. Maybe get out of my cocoon. But I don't want people thinking I've gone nuts or something.
Also, I love being outside. Just not alone. I feel like it would show that I'm mostly a loner. I go out with a classmate, but she, unlike me, has got a life and some other friends, and so when she's not available I'm stuck inside. Mostly feeling like a total pathetic loser. Yeah. Maybe I've said too much. Anyway, I hope I'll get along with you guys
Other people's opinions affect me deeply. They affected me so much, they made me dump my boyfriend ( I cared a lot about him, maybe even loved ) because he had a pretty bad acne. I met him in school and I had a crush on him ever since (for about a year or so). Then I got prettier I suppose because he finally noticed me. We were together for a while, and when spring break came I dumped him. At first I thought I did the right thing. But now I saw him again at school and i don't know anymore.
Anyway, I thought about seeing a specialist. Get some help. Maybe get out of my cocoon. But I don't want people thinking I've gone nuts or something.
Also, I love being outside. Just not alone. I feel like it would show that I'm mostly a loner. I go out with a classmate, but she, unlike me, has got a life and some other friends, and so when she's not available I'm stuck inside. Mostly feeling like a total pathetic loser. Yeah. Maybe I've said too much. Anyway, I hope I'll get along with you guys
