Ricko
New member
Hi, I just came across this website today, and felt like it would be a good idea to join. I thought that maybe I could at least start socializing with people that can maybe understand and relate to my situation, and I would not feel so out of place. I have never felt comfortable posting on any type of forums before, although I read them all the time. Just writing anything for me is very difficult, and tends to take a very long time. I tend to be extremely critical of everything I write (or say), due to either my perfectionism issues, or because I am worried about whether or not I am going to sound stupid.
I am 41 years old, and have 2 awesome boys, that are 6 and 4. I am also currently going through a divorce, which has been difficult for me, since my wife was pretty much the only person that I ever talked to. Now that I am living on my own, I feel as though I definitely NEED to have some friends. Whenever I have had any kind of friendships with anyone in the past, I have always seemed to eventually push them away from me . As time goes by, it becomes more and more difficult, and I become even more fearful of contacting them.
I have suffered from social anxiety for as long as I can remember. It gets to be very frustrating and depressing at times, as it has kept me from accomplishing so many things that I have wanted to do with my life. I try very hard to be a positive person, but it can be difficult, knowing that I have allowed my fears to control everything in my life.
I am currently unemployed, and have put myself deep into debt, since separating with my wife. I have been living off of credit cards for many months now, and have dug myself a very deep hole. Looking back, I think that my excessive credit card use, has been my way of dealing with the divorce. During my marriage I was actually very good with my money. The crazy thing is, although I am quickly running out of credit, and desperately in need of an income, I still cannot get myself to turn in job applications, because of my fears. I have been trying to start an online business, but have not been doing so well so far, but I remain hopeful that things are going to get much better. It seems like the longer I go without working somewhere, and actually being around people, the more my fears grow.
Well I guess that is enough for now. I feel relieved just being able to tell this much about myself. I am hopeful that this forum will be helpful for me, and maybe also I will be able to help others out too. If anyone has any questions for me, please feel free to ask. Also I welcome any advice that you feel may be helpful for me. It feels good to be able share, as I have lived in silence for too long! Thanks for listening!
I am 41 years old, and have 2 awesome boys, that are 6 and 4. I am also currently going through a divorce, which has been difficult for me, since my wife was pretty much the only person that I ever talked to. Now that I am living on my own, I feel as though I definitely NEED to have some friends. Whenever I have had any kind of friendships with anyone in the past, I have always seemed to eventually push them away from me . As time goes by, it becomes more and more difficult, and I become even more fearful of contacting them.
I have suffered from social anxiety for as long as I can remember. It gets to be very frustrating and depressing at times, as it has kept me from accomplishing so many things that I have wanted to do with my life. I try very hard to be a positive person, but it can be difficult, knowing that I have allowed my fears to control everything in my life.
I am currently unemployed, and have put myself deep into debt, since separating with my wife. I have been living off of credit cards for many months now, and have dug myself a very deep hole. Looking back, I think that my excessive credit card use, has been my way of dealing with the divorce. During my marriage I was actually very good with my money. The crazy thing is, although I am quickly running out of credit, and desperately in need of an income, I still cannot get myself to turn in job applications, because of my fears. I have been trying to start an online business, but have not been doing so well so far, but I remain hopeful that things are going to get much better. It seems like the longer I go without working somewhere, and actually being around people, the more my fears grow.
Well I guess that is enough for now. I feel relieved just being able to tell this much about myself. I am hopeful that this forum will be helpful for me, and maybe also I will be able to help others out too. If anyone has any questions for me, please feel free to ask. Also I welcome any advice that you feel may be helpful for me. It feels good to be able share, as I have lived in silence for too long! Thanks for listening!
