Hello everyone and I suffer from SA

[QuietDave]

Hi everyone I'am new to this forum so I thought I'll introduce myself.
(I have to admit I'am a liitle nervous)

Okay I have suffered from Social phobia all my life. I am currently 24 but I'll turn 25 in April which is frighting It's pretty much the usual stuff in my life, Worried about what people think and worrying if I have offended anyone even if I have not.

Well to be honest that just the start of it I am nervous of every social situation that I am in ,I never know what to say and My nerves always get the better of me all the time.

I think I take life to seriously. But I just can't help it as I m always nervous. I am now getting depressed about the whole thing that its affecting my favourite part of the day bedtime. (I love sleep)

I'm also getting fed up of not getting anywhere in life and have noticed it more after seeing my friends suceed with Job's and relationship last year.

I really can't understand the world as I m always friendly and helpful to folks around me I kind of belive in the Karma thing but it seems to be What ever nice thing I do I get nothing in return

Anyway enough of my life I just like to say a big Hello to everyone on here.

 

[Mrs_G]

Hey! Yeah, i'm constantly reminded that I have no self esteem and what other's think becomes everyday life... I turn into the person I think they think I am, and can't get that motivation to be confident... I'll be a weak nervous wreck...with a nervous smile, making far too many facial expressions then I should haha. I'll be confident in the mirror, or with my husband (i'm also 24, 25 in Jan and expecting our 1st - a little boy in March) but as soon as i'm one on one with a stranger, be it a shop keeper etc... I guess I seem to feel zoned in on, like they're looking at me inside a glass box or something, even when i'm calm, my self esteem makes me suffer! I wish I didn't care what I looked like when I talk, aparently noone else does, but I can't snap out of it!

 

[Chod77]

I am now getting depressed about the whole thing that its affecting my favourite part of the day bedtime. (I love sleep)
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Me too. Sleep is the best part of my life.
Welcome to the forum.

 

[QuietDave]

Yeah Im the same I wish I dind't care what everybody thought. It seems to be a automatic thing to be nervous around people I don't know.
I always find shopping to be a nervous experince especially when it comes to paying. Maybe because it's a one to one thing and it feels personnal.

I been out a couple of times this year, meeting up with friends and going for a night out. But even that is a horrible experience to go through the bars I was allright with but Night clubs are a living hell.
I always kept thinking of worst case scenarios. Like fights breaking out (I don't belive in violence of any kind) also I don't drink to get drunk I can never understand the people who go out and deliberately get drunk. I only got drunk once and that was it.

 

[Mrs_G]

Tend to fidgit with your money/card at the checkout? not knowing what/where to look..I get that alot. But suprisingly, since coming on this website and reading/writing crap in my head and knowing loads of ppl go through this hell has been uplifting and a bit of weight has fallen off my shoulders. I always felt like i was the only one, determind i wasn't depressed and didn't want to be prescribed drugs or talk to a shrink (cuz i'm quite fine around my hubby) but truth is i'm not alone in this! w00t! lol I still can't get over the fact i'l be a mommy in 10 weeks... i'm determind to try and not let anything effect me. I can't let my child see that in his mommy.

 

[QuietDave]

(Me too. Sleep is the best part of my life.
Welcome to the forum. )

Thanks Chod77 I know I like sleep because of the dreams you can have sometimes

 

[QuietDave]

Yeah thats why I came on this website it nice and comforting to meet like mind people. It allows me to accept myself a little more. I can tell that you really excited about your Baby and I wish you and husband good luck.

At the moment I havent got alot going in my life but I'm trying to keep my head up about it, trying to remain hopeful.

My hopes for this year is to make more friends acheive my goals and possibly end up in a relationship with someone.