Hello everybody, I'm glad to be here.
Hopefully this is an alright place to start rambling about myself. I've known for a long time that I'm pretty introverted, but I don't know if it's to the point of being a SA. I'm perfectly content with staying at home and reading, playing piano, playing video games, and any other hobbies of mine without leaving the house for a moment. However, living like this has lead me into this kind of neutral existence, where I never really have any happiness, but I don't much in the way of unhappiness either. This has made it so I rarely get excited for anything, but I often dread having to leave the house or needing to talk on the phone at all. The problem with this is that I can see myself living this way for the rest of my life.
And this leads me to the part that, even here, I'm somewhat hesitant to divulge. I'm 22 years old, and I've never had a romantic relationship and am still a virgin. The reason for that is my introverted lifestyle - it's not that I never wanted a relationship, or that I'm incapable of finding one, it's that in all the few times I've had a chance, it's always easier to just stop talking and leave before it would turn into anything.
And so now, I fear that it'll be too scary if and when the time comes to actually have a relationship, that I'll be mocked, and all that. What has spurred me to write this now is that my best friend, who has been single for a long time, has just gotten into a relationship and has kind of disappeared. I've tried to make this a source of motivation for myself, but instead I've just got back to being neutral, but with an extra dose of loneliness and regret mixed in.
Well, there's that.. I'm not sure what I hope to accomplish by writing or posting this, but here it is.
Hopefully this is an alright place to start rambling about myself. I've known for a long time that I'm pretty introverted, but I don't know if it's to the point of being a SA. I'm perfectly content with staying at home and reading, playing piano, playing video games, and any other hobbies of mine without leaving the house for a moment. However, living like this has lead me into this kind of neutral existence, where I never really have any happiness, but I don't much in the way of unhappiness either. This has made it so I rarely get excited for anything, but I often dread having to leave the house or needing to talk on the phone at all. The problem with this is that I can see myself living this way for the rest of my life.
And this leads me to the part that, even here, I'm somewhat hesitant to divulge. I'm 22 years old, and I've never had a romantic relationship and am still a virgin. The reason for that is my introverted lifestyle - it's not that I never wanted a relationship, or that I'm incapable of finding one, it's that in all the few times I've had a chance, it's always easier to just stop talking and leave before it would turn into anything.
And so now, I fear that it'll be too scary if and when the time comes to actually have a relationship, that I'll be mocked, and all that. What has spurred me to write this now is that my best friend, who has been single for a long time, has just gotten into a relationship and has kind of disappeared. I've tried to make this a source of motivation for myself, but instead I've just got back to being neutral, but with an extra dose of loneliness and regret mixed in.
Well, there's that.. I'm not sure what I hope to accomplish by writing or posting this, but here it is.
