whos_that_girl
Active member
Thanksgiving again, and again I feel horrible. All I did today was visit my brother in a psych hospital, cry and cry more. I'm tired of being this alone, but I really do not have any idea of if it will get any better or not. Yes I can try to meet people, and I do meet people, but then they are put off by my friendly but too quiet personality. I think I could talk more, it's just that i've been very quiet since about 13, 20 years now. I try to remind myself that I am not the only person who is suffering emotionally. It's just so painful for me, that I have to talk about it or it will drive me into the hospital again. I was hoping to feel better tday but the new doc I saw yesterday hardly looked at me when he talked, and mumbled what he was saying about the meds. He wants me to take Paxil, Staterra and Invega. Invega though has SERIOUS potential side effects like heart failure, coma, involuntary tics, etc. They all have side effects and i'm sick of wanting to take them, then getting worried about taking them. I want to be better but i'm scared, very scared.