caged-inside
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I hate it! I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!
Everytime someone I've met online asks if I wanna meet up... I always say no. But not because I don't want to, because I CAN'T!!
I can't meet them because they will hate me. I can't meet them because I will crap myself. I can't meet them because I open the front door and I feel NAKED. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING.
I can't even go into the garden anymore, I know it is just stupid but it feels like people are watching me from their windows....
And when it feels like they are, it makes me feel like im being self-obsessed.. which I probably am.. I know damn well no1 is watching me.. & thinking about it, I couldn't give a shit even if they were, but it is the feeling of them watching me which makes me uncomfortable and shake and go red and have to go back into the house.
Sorry, it's just stupid but I had to let off some steam.
Everytime someone I've met online asks if I wanna meet up... I always say no. But not because I don't want to, because I CAN'T!!
I can't meet them because they will hate me. I can't meet them because I will crap myself. I can't meet them because I open the front door and I feel NAKED. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING.
I can't even go into the garden anymore, I know it is just stupid but it feels like people are watching me from their windows....
And when it feels like they are, it makes me feel like im being self-obsessed.. which I probably am.. I know damn well no1 is watching me.. & thinking about it, I couldn't give a shit even if they were, but it is the feeling of them watching me which makes me uncomfortable and shake and go red and have to go back into the house.
Sorry, it's just stupid but I had to let off some steam.