seekingpeace
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I was just wondering if anyone else had experienced this. Last year someone I loved very much told me that people don't like me because I'm too intense. Actually I supplied the word intense when she had trouble coming up with a word to describe it, so I don't know if that's exactly what she meant, but she agreed so it must be close. I stopped having serious conversations with her after that, afraid to drive her away completely and she acts very confused and doesn't understand why I don't come around much anymore.
I wish there was someone to talk to about all of this. People think I'm selfish and that I don't care about them because I don't want to spend time around them, but it's because I don't want them to come to hate me that I avoid them, and they don't understand, of course, because they are normal (for the most part, anyway :wink: ) It's all just such a f**ked up mess, and I don't know where to begin. I can't afford meds or therapy, has anyone had success with self-help books or anything?
A couple of days ago, I read a description of AvPD that made me sit back and say "Wow, they've just described me perfectly." Then I found this site and reading posts from the ppl here has really helped me to know that I'm not alone and just plain nutso.
I would be happy to read any suggestions/advice anyone has. Thanks!
I wish there was someone to talk to about all of this. People think I'm selfish and that I don't care about them because I don't want to spend time around them, but it's because I don't want them to come to hate me that I avoid them, and they don't understand, of course, because they are normal (for the most part, anyway :wink: ) It's all just such a f**ked up mess, and I don't know where to begin. I can't afford meds or therapy, has anyone had success with self-help books or anything?
A couple of days ago, I read a description of AvPD that made me sit back and say "Wow, they've just described me perfectly." Then I found this site and reading posts from the ppl here has really helped me to know that I'm not alone and just plain nutso.
I would be happy to read any suggestions/advice anyone has. Thanks!