happy or sad?? i dunno!

[jojosparkles]

every day when i get up i think am i happy or am i sad! then throughout the day i do the same! i really dunno wat the hell i am! i do sing and dance and smile and laugh but it dont feel like a real true happiness. i suppose its cos im not content with myself..ppl and life in general.

i still sleep all the time i have away other than when i work. that probably really does not help at all. its getting really bad. i will sleep a full day away cos i feel that funny discontent feeling.

i dunno if i feel numb or wat. i dunno if the meds r workin. before i thought that the citalopram i was taking was crap and when i came off them i was so depressed i spent a month in bed.. they obv were helpin but i was still sad when i was on them...just not as sad.

anyone else dont kno wat they feel anymore. nothing seems to make me truly happy and i have no enjoyment in anythin other than sleep.

 

[IceLad]

I go through phrases like that where my favourite part of the day is going to bed at night. (How sad is that?- life is about living not sleeping! lol :lol: ) During these phrases, I lose interest in a lot of things that usually keep my reasonably content e.g. computer games, DVDs, music.

I don't think I've ever been truly happy for years, and I don't think I will until I sort SP out well and proper. I think human companionship (family, friends, b/f or g/f) is a basic human need, and SP prevents this need from being met, so you're never truly happy.

 

[jojosparkles]

yeah ya totally right! i am really battlin it at the moment. i cant even b arsed to talk to ppl on msn and that and thats bad!! im just pushin the good ppl i have away! its gettin really hard tho! all i want to do is sleep and im just so tired constantly. tired of life i suppose!

 

[corrinaelizabeth]

yeah i know the feeling i look 4ward 2 my nap time during the day lol but dread night coz cant sleep,but if i dont nap during the day im sooo tired and cant do ne thin ne way lol,and i get realy irritable which is hell 4 my parents,and i have to take my dog out in the morning and i really have to push myself if i didnt have 2 walk him i would stay in bed all day and i just feel like im wasting my life

 

[jojosparkles]

same ere babe! a need some motivation! a need it fast!

 

[lonesomeboy]

i know how it feels. too. like atm i just feel sooo low and depressed. cant be bothered to do anything and days just drift by so fast. i sleep like 3-4am wake up around noon, eat something, go on the computer and its dark already. watch some tv and before u know its time for bed again. i cant be bothered talking to anyone or seen anyone. i just want to be alone shrivel up and die.

 

[Richey]

that last bit you need to change, use the edit function and change it, please.. for me, you dont want to shrivel up you want to change a few aspects of your life, thats all, i was like that for a while but i have hobbies to look forward to and music, make your passions and interests as a reason to be alive.

 

[Danfalc]

*gone*