Feeling worthless

[Falkor]

Hello,

I feel again, when I look in the mirror, awfull. I can't feel happy in my skin,
I feel unhappy when I see myself. I see a insecure girl full of imperfections
and It's started to kick in again. I'm hiding myself from the world again in my room. I wish I could be happy with myself, But I'm forced to think about my appearance everyday. I can't stop doing it. I re-dress, I try to paint my hair to feel happy, I try to do my eyebrows, I try to make up a little. But it doesn't work for me. I still feel sick of feeling this way. The thought, drives me crazy, that everyone around me sees my fugly features and behaviour.
I'm ashamed, huge shame of everything I am.

I feel a worthless hermit in this world. With no beauty at all.
People in the past always told me How Ugly i was, in school.
Now I do everything to look good, and people tell me I do now.
But still, I feel worthless. I believe everything the people said to me.

I can't cope with my imperfections, I can't even live a normal life.
With daily actions, I want action.. Gimme some action ::
I want to be a woman with a career, but I don't accept myself.
I'm feeling negative again, why ? I don't know.
And I ****ing hate it. I'm miserable.

X

 

[fearfillsme]

Keep your head up hun. We've all been there. Everybody has imperfections but we are all beautiful on the inside. This is what I've learned. I believe in you

 

[dutchguy]

As everyone here will agree, you are absolutely not ugly and this is not me just being polite; you have very good looks.

...it can be very hard to get over the things that happened in the past, sure, but you can't let that control the present. Whenever you feel ugly, remind yourself of the people that tell you you're beautiful.

Secondly, don't dwell too much on the past. Shy/introvert people like us are often late-bloomers - think about the career you want to get, and show those people in the past that their actions may have impacted your past, but they're not going to control your future.

I'm sure you've heard all of the above before and I know it's hard, but you'll get there.