Feeling productive

[lilmutegirl]

So...along with SA, I tend to avoid doing things due to anxiety, even though sometimes these actions do not require socializing. I am constantly making lists, and always feel like I have a ton to do. Well, yesterday I made a list of 17 things to do (some required phone calls/text messages/emails, but not all), and I am down to 5! Two of those require me leaving the house, and my son is still asleep, so that won't happen soon, but I am excited by my progress.

My entire life I have felt behind, and always have a mental to-do list that I never get to. As I have progressed the past couple of years, I have often wondered if I will ever feel that I am not behind, that I just have to do a few minimal, manageable things to maintain the life I want, or if I will constantly keep myself in a state of stress due to not getting anything done.

I am starting to feel like there is hope! I see people who appear to be able to relax on downtime, whereas my mind is constantly running with what I need to do next, and it takes away enjoyment. Maybe if I continue to chip away at my life to-do list, I will eventually be able to relax too.

 

[WeirdyMcGee]

I hope that you can relax someday!! XD

My friend is very obsessive compulsive. She writes lists constantly and is *always* on the go even when she doesn't have to be.
I feel like the two of you have similar problems-- if you want to consider it a problem, I mean.
She also NEVER feels like she's being productive even though she's always completing all of these silly lists and *always* coming up with a new list before she's even done one list.
She includes things like; ' brush hair' and 'eat breakfast' in her lists although I would consider those just... normal things that I'd do without them being on a list?

When she started meds for anxiety; her compulsion to write and complete lists lessened but she still worries about them constantly.


I don't really write lists but I do feel unproductive.
... probably because I never do anything! haha