DeMarco
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I'm sick and tired of this crap. I try to take responsibility for myself and in the process I always try to sabotage myself. Over a year of time I have seek help from a therapist , group therapy, doctor, medication, counselor, coach. I am not gonna lie during the process I have learned allot about myself but now the SA is on the surface of my every move. My eye contact is like horse crap and emotionally draining. My mindset is killing me. I'm still young and I know I have huge potential. **** **** **** **** ALL. It makes me sad to see how much my parents try to help me and at the same time how they have this helpless look on their faces. I know that I wont have this lowlife mental disease for all of my life. I just wont allow it. My SA has led me to have a different perspective in life and made me more compassionate towards others. I have a hard time seeing my self worth even though family and friends always praise it. My life is in front of me but I hesitate to make the jump. My comfort zone is deceitful and always manage to lure me back to it's cave. That said............tomorrow is a new day.
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