Spfreezes
Well-known member
I want to start from the beggining. Everything started 3 years ago when I was just a 17 year old high school student or maybe I have already had it but haven't realised at all. I had to give a presentation in front of my class which is full of my friends and found myself shaking and stuttering becouse of being completely nervous.
Then I started to be anxious in other situations like being in a cafe, restourant, party... After, I went to doctor and used low dose of antidepressants and a betablocker. Then my anxiety and some fears have gone in a year.
However it was not as good as it seems. I'm not sure if I have always been sweating or it began after meds or in only particular situations like being strained. But I now see obviously that I'm sweating considerably which makes people look at me me in a way that I'm a weirdo. I always tried to prove that its normal to sweat but when I saw people around me sitting or waiting quite pleased I accept it.
Also when I sweat abnormally I begin to feel tensed and I think my face looks weird, I could not decide how to look and generally its look is in a mix of anger, stress and complication. That thing finally made me mad and now I decided to use antiperspirant in order to prevent sweating but what good is it? Even if it's useful, any other problem will occour somehow. Then I'll probably be obsessed with looking weird, talking silly,
being shy or walking funny, shortly being myself. Who am I kidding?
Anyway, despite of being desperate I'll try it too to say that I tried everyting that I could do. I just don't know when will I throw all these chemicals. I just go on living.
Then I started to be anxious in other situations like being in a cafe, restourant, party... After, I went to doctor and used low dose of antidepressants and a betablocker. Then my anxiety and some fears have gone in a year.
However it was not as good as it seems. I'm not sure if I have always been sweating or it began after meds or in only particular situations like being strained. But I now see obviously that I'm sweating considerably which makes people look at me me in a way that I'm a weirdo. I always tried to prove that its normal to sweat but when I saw people around me sitting or waiting quite pleased I accept it.
Also when I sweat abnormally I begin to feel tensed and I think my face looks weird, I could not decide how to look and generally its look is in a mix of anger, stress and complication. That thing finally made me mad and now I decided to use antiperspirant in order to prevent sweating but what good is it? Even if it's useful, any other problem will occour somehow. Then I'll probably be obsessed with looking weird, talking silly,
being shy or walking funny, shortly being myself. Who am I kidding?
Anyway, despite of being desperate I'll try it too to say that I tried everyting that I could do. I just don't know when will I throw all these chemicals. I just go on living.