Ever convince yourself that something stupid is worth worrying about?

[c4w_1337]

Right now I'm in a really shitty, anxious, and scared spot in my life, and I start to worry and worry and worry.

For instance, I was recently getting in lots of fights with my BF of about a month-- and somehow convinced myself that he was abusive. It's online, so it's sort of complicated-- but I thought that... because he didn't take my shit and the fights I picked, and he acted 'cold' about my overreactions, that he was being abusive.

Four days and crappy sleep later, I told myself to stfu-- but it's still under my skin a bit, because you never know...

And there's that question that plagues us all, "what if..?" =[


A really good therapy for me has been Tarot Cards. You interpret the seemingly useless cards, and it helps get you focus on something other than the millions of imperfections in life.

 

[reslo]

If he's calling you names, sending long messages that are just there to belittle your self-esteem, or (i don't know if you guys talk on the phone) if he's yelling at you, then that's how I would see it as being abusive.

But, a guy doesn't have to be abusive for you to get out. He could just be a crappy boyfriend. If bottomline, you're unhappy, or you guys spend more time fighting than anything else, those are reasons enough to leave.

If he seems like an ok guy, then maybe you're just testing him? seeing if he'll runaway?

And in response to the thread title, yes- spending my life worrying about people looking at me or worrying that I'll look awkward is really dumb in the grand scheme of things- but i still do it everyday~

That's really interesting about the tarot cards- I have a deck, but never really figured out how to use them. I think they're buried in my room somewhere.

 

[c4w_1337]

They're pretty fun-- the tarot cards that is.

And yea, in the end, I'm more abusive than most people I know,
And he'd only ever go off the deep-end if I push him to do so, you know? He'd never / has never picked a fight-- it's always me, and only then does he start saying shit like "Did you not hear me? ****ing listen for once."

Idk... I don't know where this splinter in my mind came from-- but it's probably just me trying to find another way out of a relationship..


But he really does make me super happy. And I still just dont think I deserve it. FML

 

[Harleyq]

All the time. I think 80% of the stuff I worry about is stupid and when it happens, I just can't understand it when people tell me to chill out and relax. I always think "Are you not listening to me? How can I relax!? Can't you see the massive consequences of this going wrong!? My whole life could be screwed up" - I don't say that of course...at least not in those words. It's hard to convince myself that things are really not as big as I think they are because I can rationalize extremities in my head

 

[FountainandFairfax]

It's hard not to over-react when I'm in panic/paranoid mode. The smallest things get blown way out of proportion and it's usually not until a good time later that I realize what I was so concerned over wasn't remotely the huge crises I thought it was.

Afterwards I usually feel foolish, and begin the self-abuse. "How are you ever going to be normal when you let little things like this blur so far out of focus."