Emma
Well-known member
I would like to know what my exact purpose for being alive is, am I here just so people can watch me suffer and feel better about themselves knowing they aren't me?
I have nothing and no-one who cares, I am truely alone in this world....I don't know what I could possibly have done to deserve this. I am not good looking at all....people comment on how ugly I am all the time, I am not a smart person....I'm 20 years old and I have never had a job...no-one will give me a chance because I am so quiet....I have no friends, I lost my boyfriend because I am so shy....I would do anything to have him take me back....but he doesn't want anything to do with me....he knew I loved him, why wasn't that enough? Why am I still alive, I just want to end it all and go to a better place, I resort to scratching my arms with a pencil sharpener blade when I'm depressed, before I go to sleep every night I pray that I won't wake up in the morning.....why can't I have the life everyone else has, why do the meanest people seem to get the most out of life? All I ever wanted was someone to give me a chance and it's not happening....why can't I just leave this world?
I have nothing and no-one who cares, I am truely alone in this world....I don't know what I could possibly have done to deserve this. I am not good looking at all....people comment on how ugly I am all the time, I am not a smart person....I'm 20 years old and I have never had a job...no-one will give me a chance because I am so quiet....I have no friends, I lost my boyfriend because I am so shy....I would do anything to have him take me back....but he doesn't want anything to do with me....he knew I loved him, why wasn't that enough? Why am I still alive, I just want to end it all and go to a better place, I resort to scratching my arms with a pencil sharpener blade when I'm depressed, before I go to sleep every night I pray that I won't wake up in the morning.....why can't I have the life everyone else has, why do the meanest people seem to get the most out of life? All I ever wanted was someone to give me a chance and it's not happening....why can't I just leave this world?