Ericisme
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Past 3 weeks I have gained 15 pounds, showered like 4 times, brushed my teeth like 4 times, changed clothes like 4 times, cut myself over a dozen times, lost my only friend(my fault) that I was really really close with(online), step dad lost his job(mom lost hers a few months ago), brother had a seizure with no insurance(he's ok), and now we'll have a huge bill to pay, before or after we go homeless, again. I started masturbating a few times a day now(lame/short alternative to anti-depressants), even cut my own junk so I'd stop doing it!, but it only stopped me for about a day(I hate being a man ). Also, I only showered and such because I had stupid appointments at the counselor(useless). I'm also getting some strange crackling in my left ear sometimes.
Oh yea, I saw how my mom reacted to my brother having a seizure. So I couldn't put her through that by killing myself. Not yet.
Yea, I had a really, really good day, then the next day my family ruined it completely, then I gave up on life. Then a few weeks later my only friend leaves me and then a few days later my step dad gets laid off, then the next day my brother has a seizure(worst part is he had no insurance). It sure gets easier after you gave up on life...
Counselor told me to write an essay on "why I don't care" . Yea, she doesn't even know about half of this, or, more like most of it. She knows about gaining 15 pounds and my brother having a seizure, oh and the SA.
I'm going to a doctor in a few days to get medication, probably anti-depressants(hopefully with bad sexual side effects, I really don't exactly enjoy having male parts). It's funny how they'll also make me gain weight even faster.... Making it worse in the long-term.
Man without the genitals. Now there's an idea. The perfect human. Not too emotional like women, but not too stupid and horny like men. True though.
Oh yea, I saw how my mom reacted to my brother having a seizure. So I couldn't put her through that by killing myself. Not yet.
Yea, I had a really, really good day, then the next day my family ruined it completely, then I gave up on life. Then a few weeks later my only friend leaves me and then a few days later my step dad gets laid off, then the next day my brother has a seizure(worst part is he had no insurance). It sure gets easier after you gave up on life...
Counselor told me to write an essay on "why I don't care" . Yea, she doesn't even know about half of this, or, more like most of it. She knows about gaining 15 pounds and my brother having a seizure, oh and the SA.
I'm going to a doctor in a few days to get medication, probably anti-depressants(hopefully with bad sexual side effects, I really don't exactly enjoy having male parts). It's funny how they'll also make me gain weight even faster.... Making it worse in the long-term.
Man without the genitals. Now there's an idea. The perfect human. Not too emotional like women, but not too stupid and horny like men. True though.