Well folks,
After years of looking, trying, searching, after doing everything I thought possible to conquer SA and all that comes with it, I finally found a girl that I thought was the one, my soulmate, I've never felt anything like it, and it seemed to be reciprocated. But as of last night, I'm back to square one.
The main problem I have and will encounter in the future is that I was desperately lonely and unhappy when I met my (now) ex. In the short couple of months we were together, I was deliriously happy. I couldn't have cared less about any hassles at work, or any other problems, I laughed them off, as I knew in a few hours I'd be lying with her on the sofa.
Now that she's gone for good, I'm back to my loneliness, my depression, amplified by the fact I've lost what I thought was the one. At the age of 36, I can safely say I've never met anyone like her ( after, say 20 years of trying ), so cannot see the possibility of ever finding someone like her again. And I don't just sit around expecting it to happen, I've been online dating on numerous sites for 8 years, travel frequently, but still never click with potential partners.
Not sure if I can come back from this one to be honest
After years of looking, trying, searching, after doing everything I thought possible to conquer SA and all that comes with it, I finally found a girl that I thought was the one, my soulmate, I've never felt anything like it, and it seemed to be reciprocated. But as of last night, I'm back to square one.
The main problem I have and will encounter in the future is that I was desperately lonely and unhappy when I met my (now) ex. In the short couple of months we were together, I was deliriously happy. I couldn't have cared less about any hassles at work, or any other problems, I laughed them off, as I knew in a few hours I'd be lying with her on the sofa.
Now that she's gone for good, I'm back to my loneliness, my depression, amplified by the fact I've lost what I thought was the one. At the age of 36, I can safely say I've never met anyone like her ( after, say 20 years of trying ), so cannot see the possibility of ever finding someone like her again. And I don't just sit around expecting it to happen, I've been online dating on numerous sites for 8 years, travel frequently, but still never click with potential partners.
Not sure if I can come back from this one to be honest
