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My darkness
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OK for some reason the moderators didn't aprove my post,but i'l hope you will get to read this
When i was little,i always thought that something bad is going to happen to my loved ones,when someone didn't answer the door,the phone,i thought about a car accident etc...
That went away,and then i developed a strange obsession:friends.My best friends where 200km away,so i didn't acutally see them so oftem,but when i did,i had the most wonderfull time!every night i thought about that place,it bacame an obsession.What to say,when,where...i knew everything!!that was the time i developed a sleep disorder,needing 1 h or more to go to sleep.
from september it became very anoying:i hade all kind of intrusive and gay thougths.But i didn't know about OCD i thought i was going insane.But it passed.there was a short period when i felt OKE,without any evil thought,nor sexual.
But that's not the reason i wrote here,from the begening i became obsessed with cutting myself.I have a scar for almost each major event in my life,and yestarday it was too.si i got cut myself.
It's stupid,i knew that it's stupid what i'm doing,but i thought"well,it will heal,and then every time i look at the scar,i will remember!"
What should i do?to stop doing crazy stuff!
When i was little,i always thought that something bad is going to happen to my loved ones,when someone didn't answer the door,the phone,i thought about a car accident etc...
That went away,and then i developed a strange obsession:friends.My best friends where 200km away,so i didn't acutally see them so oftem,but when i did,i had the most wonderfull time!every night i thought about that place,it bacame an obsession.What to say,when,where...i knew everything!!that was the time i developed a sleep disorder,needing 1 h or more to go to sleep.
from september it became very anoying:i hade all kind of intrusive and gay thougths.But i didn't know about OCD i thought i was going insane.But it passed.there was a short period when i felt OKE,without any evil thought,nor sexual.
But that's not the reason i wrote here,from the begening i became obsessed with cutting myself.I have a scar for almost each major event in my life,and yestarday it was too.si i got cut myself.
It's stupid,i knew that it's stupid what i'm doing,but i thought"well,it will heal,and then every time i look at the scar,i will remember!"
What should i do?to stop doing crazy stuff!
