I am just wondering if anyone else has felt this way. Often when my OCD is at it's worst, I get really depressed and start to wonder if I am in hell from attempting suicide in the past. One bible phrase pops into my mind: "when hell is full, the dead will walk the earth". This is pretty messed up, I know, but it comes from my upbringing. My parents are fundamentalists Christians and since I was 17 I have been an athiest. I know it seems obsurd, but when I am really down and especially when I see everyone happier than me, and seeming to coast through life without anxiety, this thought enters my mind. I know it isn't true deep down, but sometimes it is hard to believe I am existing this way and living with all this pain.