Do you sometimes hate yourself?

[DevC]

I'm having one of those weeks/months where I'm struggling to stay ontop of it.

 

[Deiradella]

Yes frequently. I don't have a day go by without feeling hatred towards my personality or behviour at some point throughout the day. I have tried CBT and self-help books, but if you don't believe what they tell you to think, then how is it going to make one bit of difference? It's like trying to tell yourself that your eyes are blue when they are in fact brown.

This exactly.

I have this voice in the back of my head 24/7 telling me exactly how much of an ugly, stupid, worthless, odd, and useless b**** I am. I just want to get rid of that voice. I don't think I'm quite capable of ever believing I'm decent looking, smart, and actually capable of getting something to work well, but I'm so much happier on those rare days when I can block the voice out. Or at least I think. It's been nearly seven years since I've had one of those days, so my memory's gone a bit fuzzy with time.

I just want quiet, but how do you get it?