I feel the same way.where I live it's a close country community,where everyone chips in and they are always organising social events that revolve aroung the pub.but when I go there I feel that no really likes me apart from a few family and a few people that are nice to most folk.I feel that others are negative towards me and sometimes feel that they are talking about me and don't really want me to be there.this has caused me to avoid going out on weekend nights when most of these people are there.i only tend to go out early friday evening,as i know that mostly the nice people will be there.because of this i tend to be very quiet,as if i don't think i have anything interesting to say anyway,and if i do start a conversation i talk the subject too long,get lost cause i can't concentrate (thinking all the time,which causes my mind to go blank,as i may be thinking of what to say next and when it comes time i completly foget it).this is real hard,and it gets worse the more i drink.this makes me feel like an outcast in my own community.
I do accept that everone won't like you and that you don't like everyone,but I guess it's hard for us SA sufferers to accept,as we have a great need to be liked/loved,so we expect everyone to like us to prove to ourselfs that we are nice guys of gals.