aRizzle2011
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I understand much about OCD and know that I have many of the major symptoms. I used to think it was certain that I had OCD, but I still have my doubts...can anyone help me figure out before I waste my time getting tested for it?
Some of my signs include:
Repetitive hand washing [I feel the need to wash them if they 'feel dirty to me'].
Nighttime/morning rituals I strictly follow.
When taking notes or tests in school, I have to erase what I wrote over and over again if my writing is crooked or sloppy.
The things on my dresser is set up exactly as I want it and when they are messed up, I have to immediately fix them to perfection.
I often ask my parents to feel my head to check for a fever [also rubbing and poking my stomach when it hurts to see if I gag, meaning I would throw up].
I have aniexty issues over everything. For example, I'm in constant fear of harming myself or people I really care about, even though I know I could never bring myself to actually doing them.
Whenever I feel that germs have gotten into my mouth, I immediately gather all the saliva in my mouth and repetitively spit it out, until I feel no longer contaminated.
I have a terrible feeling of dread if something is not done correctly, or I am pulled away from a task, without completing it. It's my biggest fear that because that happened, something bad will happen, like someone close to me will die, or I will throw up [one of my biggest fears].
When I want something very bad, I repeatedly pray silently to myself, to ensure that I will get it. Or if I'm worried about something bad happening, I keep asking God for it to not happen [this problem distracts me in school a lot].
I save old notes and hall passes, not being able to let myself throw them away.
[This last one is extremely embarassing and maybe unrelated to this disorder, but I'd like another opinion on it] :
I'm almost 100% sure that I am straight, because I'm basically boy-crazy and just love talking about them with my friends, as most teen girls do. But I'm not too experienced when it comes to guys. I have only had one true boyfriend before and only been kissed once in my life. I haven't had a lot of physical comfort from a guy, such as holding onto/cuddling, but I long for it. Every once in awhile though, I have some strange sexual feelings towards the same sex. I've never acted on any of them or even come close, though. Is this because I seek comfort from males and do not get it? Are this feelings normal? Is there a possibility that I'm bisexual?
Also, another thing is that I have this obsession with looking at other girl's body parts and comparing them to myself. This makes me feel almost that I'm not good enough, because I don't look like that...is that a sign that I'm a lesbian, or just insecure? I don't get these feelings all the time, but sometimes I worry that I'm gay, even though I don't want to be. One thing will never change, though...I LOVE guys and cannot get enough of them!
Please help with these questions, I would really appreciate it!
Thanks.
Some of my signs include:
Repetitive hand washing [I feel the need to wash them if they 'feel dirty to me'].
Nighttime/morning rituals I strictly follow.
When taking notes or tests in school, I have to erase what I wrote over and over again if my writing is crooked or sloppy.
The things on my dresser is set up exactly as I want it and when they are messed up, I have to immediately fix them to perfection.
I often ask my parents to feel my head to check for a fever [also rubbing and poking my stomach when it hurts to see if I gag, meaning I would throw up].
I have aniexty issues over everything. For example, I'm in constant fear of harming myself or people I really care about, even though I know I could never bring myself to actually doing them.
Whenever I feel that germs have gotten into my mouth, I immediately gather all the saliva in my mouth and repetitively spit it out, until I feel no longer contaminated.
I have a terrible feeling of dread if something is not done correctly, or I am pulled away from a task, without completing it. It's my biggest fear that because that happened, something bad will happen, like someone close to me will die, or I will throw up [one of my biggest fears].
When I want something very bad, I repeatedly pray silently to myself, to ensure that I will get it. Or if I'm worried about something bad happening, I keep asking God for it to not happen [this problem distracts me in school a lot].
I save old notes and hall passes, not being able to let myself throw them away.
[This last one is extremely embarassing and maybe unrelated to this disorder, but I'd like another opinion on it] :
I'm almost 100% sure that I am straight, because I'm basically boy-crazy and just love talking about them with my friends, as most teen girls do. But I'm not too experienced when it comes to guys. I have only had one true boyfriend before and only been kissed once in my life. I haven't had a lot of physical comfort from a guy, such as holding onto/cuddling, but I long for it. Every once in awhile though, I have some strange sexual feelings towards the same sex. I've never acted on any of them or even come close, though. Is this because I seek comfort from males and do not get it? Are this feelings normal? Is there a possibility that I'm bisexual?
Also, another thing is that I have this obsession with looking at other girl's body parts and comparing them to myself. This makes me feel almost that I'm not good enough, because I don't look like that...is that a sign that I'm a lesbian, or just insecure? I don't get these feelings all the time, but sometimes I worry that I'm gay, even though I don't want to be. One thing will never change, though...I LOVE guys and cannot get enough of them!
Please help with these questions, I would really appreciate it!
Thanks.
