Lucy13
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Hi, I'm Lucy. I'm almost thirteen. For a while, I've been doing things like closing all the doors in my house, making sure all light-switches are facing in the same direction, looking at posters and repeating certain phrases that make me think certain things will happen, pushing chairs against tables, making sure objects are touching and arranging them in particular ways, repeating things in my head, counting things until I reach a number that feels "right", pushing things into various positions until they feel "right", showering more than I should and a few other things as well. I've also suddenly become petrified of taking Biology lessons (we're learning about human biology and the reproductive...yeah) - I can't even open my booklet, otherwise I start panicking and I just want to run.
I don't feel comfortable unless I do the things I mentioned above, it almost feels like a relief once I've done them, but I don't do them because I fear terrible things will happen if I don't, I do them because I fear certain things won't happen if I don't do them...for instance, if someone has been making fun of a singer I like, calling them "horrible" and such, if I look at a poster of them and repeat "not horrible" either in my head or aloud a certain number of times, I feel that the person isn't horrible. It sounds stupid, but I do it every day. I also worry constantly about checking various websites, and I really hate change.
I don't know if I'm overreacting or if I have OCD, or something else. Can someone please help me out here?
I don't feel comfortable unless I do the things I mentioned above, it almost feels like a relief once I've done them, but I don't do them because I fear terrible things will happen if I don't, I do them because I fear certain things won't happen if I don't do them...for instance, if someone has been making fun of a singer I like, calling them "horrible" and such, if I look at a poster of them and repeat "not horrible" either in my head or aloud a certain number of times, I feel that the person isn't horrible. It sounds stupid, but I do it every day. I also worry constantly about checking various websites, and I really hate change.
I don't know if I'm overreacting or if I have OCD, or something else. Can someone please help me out here?