Distressed, anxious, lacks true understanding of oneself.

[rabbit88]

Hey, I am a 18 year old guy and for the last few years I have become extremely distressed and anxious about my appearance. I gaze at myself in the mirror on a daily basis, wondering how anyone could be born so ugly. I feel like I stand out like a sore thumb, that people are staring at my ugliness from every angle. Some people close to me say that I am not ugly but I feel that they are only saying this not to make me feel bad. I stare at the mirror for minutes on end in a kind of trance which I hope will end with me coming to assurance that I am not ugly. But that never happens of course. To get though daily life I continuously say to myself “I am not ugly, I am not ugly”, just to try and make the best out of my life. But by saying this I think it shows I am in a state of denial, it shows that I am actually ugly but I am trying to sweep the fact under the carpet. Is this true? , am I ugly or am I actually decent looking? Please assist me, I am trying to finally gain a true and honest understanding of myself. True Understanding of my physical appearance is something I have never had in my life and finding the truth, whether it be good or bad, is central to me. Thanks.

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[shon]

I think you're very cute. Too bad I'm old and married! (lol)

Why do you think you're ugly, I just don't see it.

 

[Foxglove]

No, hon, you aren't ugly . I can't understand why you would think so. But I guess that's part of being social phobic or having poor self-esteem. I always think I'm ugly, too, even tho people say I "have a pretty face". Does that mean the rest looks like shit 8O ? Anyway, you aren't ugly, so relax, don't worry about it.

 

[Dark_Loner]

Are you kidding me? You're definatley not ugly. I was expecting to see some deformed Shrek lookalike or something, but you look normal. You don't have anything to worry about, dude. You're fine.

 

[MrsShyla]

You are not ugly by any means! But, it won't matter if a million people tell you are aren't ugly, you won't believe them. I understand how you feel this way, but I don't know what to do about it.