gustavofring
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So I'm almost done with my grad project, which has kept me in depression/anxiety hell for almost 2 years. It's by no means something I'm proud of though, and doubt is kicking in. I have to contact my teachers about it and show it to them, but I feel so ashamed and idiotic about it. They're gonna criticize the daylights out of me and I won't know what to say.
So now after two weeks of finally getting stuff done, I am once again in the doubtful state. I must follow through, it's really now or never.
I can then get a job and hopefully quickly move out of my social anxiety inducing (too many roommates) house and get something of my own, or atleast with fewer roommates. I know I'll have a huge college debt because of my study delay and that's also worrying me.
I have such difficulty following through with this. It's like temporary uplift and minor succes is always met by a great downfall. I've serious trouble commiting to things and finishing them. It's almost like I'm addicted to my safe sheltered little existence even though it's making me miserable.
Sorry for raving a bit.
So now after two weeks of finally getting stuff done, I am once again in the doubtful state. I must follow through, it's really now or never.
I can then get a job and hopefully quickly move out of my social anxiety inducing (too many roommates) house and get something of my own, or atleast with fewer roommates. I know I'll have a huge college debt because of my study delay and that's also worrying me.
I have such difficulty following through with this. It's like temporary uplift and minor succes is always met by a great downfall. I've serious trouble commiting to things and finishing them. It's almost like I'm addicted to my safe sheltered little existence even though it's making me miserable.
Sorry for raving a bit.