the_sorrowful
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Have you ever felt so much negativity that you actually feel yourself suffocating? That's what i feel pretty much every day whenever i'm around the rest of the human race. For as long as i can remember they've despised me. There were and still are, however, the the few sensible people whose minds are advanced enough to see past the ignorance of the "populite" (popular person...i use this word a lot by the way:]). Regardless, they end up being taken from me by some cruel twist of fate. Basically, i've never been able to keep a friend for more than a year and have been surrounded by people pretty much ready to kill me all my life. I've just moved (once again) which means that all my friendships were severed before they even really started. I would normally have no problem with this since i rather like being alone, but i notice that the "populites" never have to deal with any of this. Their lives seem rather perfect while mine is dragged through the mud. I'm more than sure that i'm not the worst case out there and that there's someone out there saying "This guy doesn't know what real saddness and pain is". Well i'm pretty sure that i don't, considering, but i do indeed feel bad enough for self affliction to be an option that constantly arises. Hm, a friend...a consistently happy life...is that really too much to ask for. I really am starting to get tired of having to play the role of outcast all the time. Hopefully i don't take it upon myself to end it sooner than anyone would like.