desperately desiring to hang out with friends as child

[RN3]

I was very shy from the time I could remember. I had friends as a little girl. (because I had 5 siblings). As I got older and more aware of my social phobia I became more withdrawn and distant from my friends. One of the most painful memory is that I would see my friends outside having so much fun with one another. (I would peek out the window so that no one could see me).I wanted so bad to go play with them. I prayed that someone would come visit. Most times they didn't and when they did they stayed for a short while because I didn't have a whole lot to say. Thinking about it makes me feel so sad.

 

[kihira]

A mind tool that I find useful is to imagine myself now going back to help me as a child, to be the adult that wasn't there and do whatever was needed. So in you situation you might imagine returning to the past and gently encouraging your younger self to go outside and play with the others, then imagine little you playing happily etc. This also seems to work for current situations by imagining your older self returning to now to help and advise with current problems.

 

[Madix]

I remember that same thing happening to me as a kid. all my friends from way back ended up forgetting about me because of this condition. sad but thats a fact of life and even if you wanted to...you cannot change that. best thing to do now is work on yourself. when you enjoy being yourself doing the things that it is you do...all those SP feelings flush away, cuz u have bigger things on ur mind rather than other people. and if they wanna listen to ur happening great...if not...who cares...its your life your in control of yourself.

two days ago, I started making music again. something I have been neglecting for sometime. ive always had a gift for it but never did anything with it. now I am and I've recorded 2 solo songs. ive never been more proud of myself...now I'm talking to everyone all of a sudden, and I feel like I'm the shytt now!!! idk how long this feeling is gonna last but, well see lol.

so take care of you....and nobody else!!!