Now days I'm just a confused mess of hormones and depression. That's my excuse for why you don't see me trying anymore. Even when I do get a woman to talk to me a little bit. That's all it is anymore, is just a little bit. That connection I used to get in the old days just doesn't seem to happen anymore. My heart isn't in it like once was. I lost all hope. I mean I really have! I have tried to even make myself hope and I can't do it anymore.