Deeply Disconnected

[Bullied Anonymous]

I stayed home today. Couldn't deal with the stress so I cried and told my mom I wasn't going to school. As much as I hate that school, its not a very comfortable feeling being at home ,either. Everytime I'm here, my mom always wants to get into a deep discussion of why we don't talk as much as the other kids in the house. There's nothing wrong with her. She's a good mother, I just feel restricted in the things I say and want to tell her. I'd love to bond if I didn't feel like she was going to judge me ,but I know her all too well to know that's not true. All she wants is for me to be able to confide anything in her ,but I just can't. I hate hurting her like that. I hate hurting everyone that I live with ,but I just can't talk to them. I feel so disconnected, its as if I'm living with strangers ,but its my own family. I don't know how I shut myself out this far.

 

[rachel592]

It can be really hard opening up about you're anxious feelings especially with people you are close to. Whenever my mom wants to talk to me about my anxiety and depression I just get upset and feel ashamed of it. Keep posting on this site though it really helps.

 

[Bullied Anonymous]

I'm being bullied extremely bad ,and there's no upside to it. The only thing I can do is keep going and finish.

Every once in a while, I just need a break from it. I actually need a perminant break ,but once every couple of weeks is all I can afford to miss.

 

[Bullied Anonymous]

No. My mom doesn't think its such a good idea ,since I'm so close to graduating.

 

[lithium]

Try to go through it...my senior year of high school was hell. My anxiety was to the roof, and my depression as well. But I pulled through,and I'm glad I made it through without having to run away. Just keep on pushing, you'll get through it.