Compulsions?

[Danfalc]

I dont know if thats the right word...but i thought id see if anyone else has simlar things.Its hard to describe it i seem to...not to be able to do alot of things in moderation.

Like im a gamer...and when i get a new game,i cant just play it like a normal person a few hours here and there i have to beat it and often complete it in a day or two at the most.This also means i get way too frustrated over somthing im ment to enjoy if i cant beat it.

Another thing is...if i have booze in and open it i have to drink it all,I mean i dont ever end up in hospital i do have a little common sence :: But i cant seem to just have a little drink and put it away.(I hardly drink btw before i come across as an alki lol..).I use to binge eat when I was younger aswell.I think im kinda like that in relationships aswell i either totaly love someone or im just not into them full stop.Its like there is no middle ground for me with alot of things.

Same with money,i have to try so hard not to just go and spend it all for the sake of it,the only reason i dont these days is because i have bills to pay.So yeah just wondering if anyone is the same or has simlar things?

 

[lurknomore]

I think I'm kind of similar- if I fix an amount of food I feel like I have to eat it all, pour a drink (not usually alcohol though) I have to finish it, when I find a new game I like I play it ALL the time, can't pull myself away from it to do constructive things, etc. I'm not sure if I would say it is being compulsive though- but then maybe I have more problems than I thought lol. Fortunately I'm not like that with money, but I don't usually hang on to cash because I usually end up spending faster once I have small bills. So, maybe I just have that one under control.

 

[Danfalc]

Thanks for the reply lurknomore,nice to know its not just me.And yeah thats what i mean!Even pouring myself a glass of juice...i cant sip it i drain it lol,or if i get some sweets or somthing im a big kid and cant put them down.

Im good with cash aswell but only because its somthing ive had to like train myself to do.And yeah maybe compulsive wasnt the best way to word it.Maybe its a quirk of having depression?We like to induldge ourselves in things i dunno?

 

[Lea]

I have this definitely as well and it´s killing me. Either I diet hard and I´m afraid to eat (I had anorexia before) or binge eat. And the more you eat, the worse it is, it´s crazy. The thing is, I have stomach problem since about 19 (and before it wasn´t allright either). It creates too much acid and this makes my stomach not only hurt all the time (some years ago I was even spitting blood), but also it´s getting to my whole body, affects eyes (conjunctivitis), nerves. And the more nervous and agitated I am, the more compulsive eating and behaviour. Interesting is, once the pains tops sometimes, it´s such a difference. I am calm, feel free, can do things I was neglecting before and have no urge to eat. But it´s so hard to get into this state, because I have to eat and can´t take almost anything that wouldn´t cause me trouble. I am telling myself every day I´ll eat only potatoes but I´m never able to stick to it long, because of my body cravings. Or I manage not to eat longer time but then I have hunger attack and once I start eating, I can´t stop.

 

[SickJoke]

Yeah I've had big issues with this. And not just with food/games but also drugs and alcohol. They're all just forms of escapism. Turns out I had "addictive personality disorder," which is just a bullshit label for: "your life sucks, so you abuse any form of escapism that you can."