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[no1]

I feel very negative. I am very negative. I don't believe in anything and have been this way for years. I feel,i "know" there is no hope. like everything is so absolutely useless. this entire universe feels useless, hopeless. I am very closed off of everything.I see no light, no life, or way for me no matter how hard I could try. Im too exhausted to do anything. I tire of everything very quickly, if not instantly.

I have of course had hope before, but once that feeling is gone,I'm left with nothing. And absolute utter hopelessness that not one thing could ever change my mind, not even myself. I am closed off from everything.

 

[Klaus]

Fron Neil Gaiman's Sandman

Fron Neil Gaiman's Sandman Series

CHORONZON: I am a dire world, prey-stalking, lethal prowler.

MORPHEUS: I am a hunter, horse-mounted, wolf-stabbing.

CHORONZON: I am a horsefly, horse-stinging, hunter-throwing.

MORPHEUS: I am a spider, fly-consuming, eight legged.

CHORONZON: I am a snake, spider-devouring, posion-toothed.

MORPHEUS: I am an ox, snake-crushing, heavy footed.

CHORONZON: I am an anthrax, butcher, bacterium, warm-life destroying.

MORPHEUS: I am a world, space-floating, life nurturing.

CHORONZON: I am a nova, all-exploding... planet-cremating.

MORPHEUS: I am the Universe -- all things encompassing, all life embracing.

CHORONZON: I am Anti-Life, the Beast of Judgement. I am the dark at the end of everything. The end of universes, gods, worlds... of everything. Sss. And what will you be then, Dreamlord?

MORPHEUS: I am hope.

 

[no1]

weird. my dad thinks I'm just being irresponsible.

 

[eso]

I feel very negative. I am very negative. I don't believe in anything and have been this way for years. I feel,i "know" there is no hope. like everything is so absolutely useless. this entire universe feels useless, hopeless. I am very closed off of everything.I see no light, no life, or way for me no matter how hard I could try. Im too exhausted to do anything. I tire of everything very quickly, if not instantly.

I have of course had hope before, but once that feeling is gone,I'm left with nothing. And absolute utter hopelessness that not one thing could ever change my mind, not even myself. I am closed off from everything.

Are you sure you don't have some kind of illness like depression? Or has that been diagnosed already?

 

[sleepysparrow]

I feel the same way sometimes, but my feelings come and go. Sometimes I feel horribly depressed and miserable and hating myself - like lately. I usually just hide from everyone and spend my time drawing, it kind of helps me pull myself out of it. I suggest just do take some time and do something you love, or something that calms you down, because things will always get better, some day. I know this might not be the best advice because it's hard to motivate yourself to do anything when you feel that way, but those bad feelings will pass. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[no1]

hey thanks for the reply sleepysparrow. btw that's a nice pic, nice smile. ;P

anyway.......

Thats good you have an activity to fill up your time with. I usually kinda need an underlying sense of confidence to really lose myself in some other activity... i guess. I have a guitar. I dont know if things will ever get better. "realism" I guess. not even after death, as if that could be the last hope, but not for me I guess. I like to think there is a possibility of getting better but it seems like only a Miracle or something extraordinary will make it better and miracles are hard to grasp it seems.

but yea uhmm... I wish you the best also.

peace