michel18
Member
hi
i dont feel like writing a long text here,
but those who know experienced what im about to say,
if any, and thats what in wondering, will know what i i mean...
Have you ever had someone thatwas a bit or more close to you, often times can be a brother or sister(in my case my brother) or a friend
or fam member, and that person then suddenly or slowly moved
out of your life, beyond "your little life" and setting...
... and then while you feel/felt like you were missing them so much
and its so much more boring without them, when he/she is around
nowadays you do not open up or share much with them anymore, almost
like you are "keeping them out" - kinda like you do it because
maybe you dont want to get attached to them anymore because you dont
want to hurt again and they leave again after they dropped by, and maybe for some other reasons like maybe frustration at them for not being there anymore, maybe some anger or something, or what not?
Im asking because i am closing down quite a bit when my brother is
around nowadays when im supposed to be so gld when hes there - and
sometimes hell be all like happy and "hey" and do some stupid dance
to some music thats supposed to be kinda funny , but i just cant get
into it like i used to in the past - like i dont want to get into it
for some reasons, like for the possible reasons and emotions mentioned
above or others...
Basically im not sure exactly what im feeling so amsking if any of you
know or had similar experiences.
And i dont want to be like that anymore, im self sabotaging as i really
care about my bro and want to keep a god relationship but its like im
doing everything wrong and not trying to make it a good time that will
make him want to go on do things with me.
i dunno...
its like a few repressed emotions inside me mixed together
and i want to know what it is and want to get of rid before i
destroy it for good.
i dont feel like writing a long text here,
but those who know experienced what im about to say,
if any, and thats what in wondering, will know what i i mean...
Have you ever had someone thatwas a bit or more close to you, often times can be a brother or sister(in my case my brother) or a friend
or fam member, and that person then suddenly or slowly moved
out of your life, beyond "your little life" and setting...
... and then while you feel/felt like you were missing them so much
and its so much more boring without them, when he/she is around
nowadays you do not open up or share much with them anymore, almost
like you are "keeping them out" - kinda like you do it because
maybe you dont want to get attached to them anymore because you dont
want to hurt again and they leave again after they dropped by, and maybe for some other reasons like maybe frustration at them for not being there anymore, maybe some anger or something, or what not?
Im asking because i am closing down quite a bit when my brother is
around nowadays when im supposed to be so gld when hes there - and
sometimes hell be all like happy and "hey" and do some stupid dance
to some music thats supposed to be kinda funny , but i just cant get
into it like i used to in the past - like i dont want to get into it
for some reasons, like for the possible reasons and emotions mentioned
above or others...
Basically im not sure exactly what im feeling so amsking if any of you
know or had similar experiences.
And i dont want to be like that anymore, im self sabotaging as i really
care about my bro and want to keep a god relationship but its like im
doing everything wrong and not trying to make it a good time that will
make him want to go on do things with me.
i dunno...
its like a few repressed emotions inside me mixed together
and i want to know what it is and want to get of rid before i
destroy it for good.