almost had it
"SA" is a VERY complicated issue. I went through my wholelife with SA untill i was a senior in high school. I was to the point where i was going to kill myself, but i figured meds should be the second to last resort.. I started taking Effexor 75 milligrams, and within the first3 weeks, i went from being the most unconfident, depressed and angry kid in theschool to being the most confident, and socialable guy in the senior class!(no exageration)
Too bad my nightmare came true. I ended up moving to ohio withmy dad, started smoking weed, and now allof asudden the meds have no effect towards my SA. Ever since i smoked weed for those 4 months(alot of smoking), ive been going down hill. I quit smoking 8 months ago, tried every med there is in the book, spent thousands on psychiatrists and here i am. Living in ohio withmydd, cant keepa job and feellike i let myself down. Ihave no one toblaim but myself for making the decision to light up for a few months. If i keep doing everything in the right direction and keep suffering with this crap, im done.