mikebird
Banned
I start jobs, full of optimism, passion, and eagerness.
This always ends in misery on both sides. Maximum time on something is about 3 months.
Minimum ever has been 3 days. This happened twice at the end of 2010, and again, last week.
I cannot gauge if the problem is SA, or my lack of technical expertise, which can be 50:50, because the greatest horror always comes down to the fact that NOBODY ever has or ever will announce, or say to me, what the problem is. Exactly the same with girlfriends who I spend time with on a timescale about the same! From 4.5 years to about 2-3 month minimum! If one person ever just told me anything to my face: you're ugly, stupid, lazy, selfish... and a few details... then my life would be right on track.
I'm not complaining now. I ain't down. I'm fine. Just a thought. I'm always full of ideas.
Maintaining a relationship - the weirdest bit is that I certainly don't argue or have a go at anyone. I bow down (psychologically) to my boss, or girlfriend. Friendly. Give 'n' take. Open. That's why I don't get it. Maybe I'm too easy-going.
Blinkers, by the way... the name is because that's my office demeanour. I've got no time for friendmaking, or coffeemaking in the office.. I wonder why... cuz I suffered the last 13 years of career in absolute rejection, for NO REASON disclosed. Everything ends in "that you for all your work, Mike!" which, for me, I assume it means "go away - never want to speak to you again" which I'd like to understand.
Anyway. A rant. Hard to ignore the facts. I like to investigate the root cause, as I am an engineer. BUT not a psychologist!
This always ends in misery on both sides. Maximum time on something is about 3 months.
Minimum ever has been 3 days. This happened twice at the end of 2010, and again, last week.
I cannot gauge if the problem is SA, or my lack of technical expertise, which can be 50:50, because the greatest horror always comes down to the fact that NOBODY ever has or ever will announce, or say to me, what the problem is. Exactly the same with girlfriends who I spend time with on a timescale about the same! From 4.5 years to about 2-3 month minimum! If one person ever just told me anything to my face: you're ugly, stupid, lazy, selfish... and a few details... then my life would be right on track.
I'm not complaining now. I ain't down. I'm fine. Just a thought. I'm always full of ideas.
Maintaining a relationship - the weirdest bit is that I certainly don't argue or have a go at anyone. I bow down (psychologically) to my boss, or girlfriend. Friendly. Give 'n' take. Open. That's why I don't get it. Maybe I'm too easy-going.
Blinkers, by the way... the name is because that's my office demeanour. I've got no time for friendmaking, or coffeemaking in the office.. I wonder why... cuz I suffered the last 13 years of career in absolute rejection, for NO REASON disclosed. Everything ends in "that you for all your work, Mike!" which, for me, I assume it means "go away - never want to speak to you again" which I'd like to understand.
Anyway. A rant. Hard to ignore the facts. I like to investigate the root cause, as I am an engineer. BUT not a psychologist!
