been shy for too long

[purdygurl]

i need advice, i am 21 and have been shy all my life and i have had enough. Around certain people I can be myself and have a laugh, but most people I can't talk to and feel afraid of, and imtimidated by..I find I feel most comfortable with nice people but anyone with the slightest bit of toughness to their personality or if they are confident I back off.

I have a boyfriend and I feel I have made an effort at my best with his friends, but some don't even bother making an effort with me and I feel like it's my fault for not making an effort with them. My boyfriends best friend has a girlfriend but I can't talk to her, I don't know what to say, I feel she wont like me but the thing is, she never bothered to make a conversation with me either...i dont get it..is it just me? do i seem imtimidating? is my shyness THAT obvious? I dont want to be like this forever, It's just i never know what to say, even if the conversation is about them i still feel as if im un interesting. I find some people are nasty to me, they take the mickey out of things i say and use sarcasm as witt. But because im a nice person i never know what to say back or how to stick up for myself.

I realise i have low self esteem but its only so because i have this shyness that is ruling my life. I am an attractive person and people think im crazy for not having confidence...my deepest desire is to truly be myself, which is this funny witty silly woman that makes people giggle because i can be geeky, but also friendly and i spontaneously sing....but i realise im way too shy to make this a reality.

It seems most people have a problem with my shyness, i have known my bfs mates for a few years, i used to be really shy and never talk and now that i do come out of my shell and make an effort, it feels like they are pushing me back into it by makin a remark of how i used to be really quiet and NEVER say anything, like they are really mad at me or something like ''if u never spoke bk then, why are u bothering to now?'' i really want to change how everyone see's me, some people describe me as ''i never talk, and hide away'' i want to change that view...but how can i if no one makes an effort with me?! to make ME feel wanted and appreciated? why doesnt anyone make an effort first?!

 

[Wayne-InSane]

That reminds me of the time when I stabbed some ol' gril in tha' face - whcked her corss her bitch-ass lips wiv' the krooklock and pissed on her glasses. It really fucking funny, and the Police didn't even catch me! :lol:

 

[jasmine32]

hey

I think you need to take small step to become loose> try singing at a karaoke.

 

[Scissorman]

I know exactly what you mean. I like stabbing scissors into peoples eyes in their dreams, and I get back all this typical bullshit about it being my fault. I didn't ask to the be the Scissorman - it was thrust upon me. I hate being blamed for what I am.

 

[Serge]

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[Satan]

Serge and Goldilocksrocks who sucks cocks is going to die of cancer.

 

[Belial]

Try actually seeing a real human being die in front of you before spouting off all your masturbatory fantasies of killing, maiming and causing pain.

It is quite amusing at times to hear, and let me guess a bunch of middle class white boys from where is it East Sussex, pretending to be hardcore ghetto kids - the whole Ali G thing with a makeup fetish thrown in. The kind of people who would probably run crying the second real violence kicks off and there are real lives at stake.

If you idiots are for real in wanting to kill you could always join the army (given the current situation they would take about anyone right now probably) or travel to some of the warzones around the world or spend time in some of the world's less desirable nations where death and public death at that is an everpresent reality.

Until you children (am betting none of you are out of your early twenties) have seen, heard, smelt and felt a person dying or dead in front of you give the constant references to killing a rest. With every post on the subject you make yourself look even more fucking clueless. You are a bunch of wannabe suburban posers who think they know what the real world is like.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. FAGGOT.

 

[FlirtyandDirty]

Serge and Goldilocksrocks who sucks cocks is going to die of cancer.

Goodness, the forum is full of low life tonight.

Would suggest that you grow up, but I feel that that term would be rather alien to you.. But I will bid you a good day, because am nice like that.


Might I ask though, is it both Goldilocksrocks and Serge who suck cock, or just one of them?? You weren't very specific.

 

[Satan]

Both of them. They both suck cocks together. They partners in cocksucking. hahaha. I caught them down this alley one night gettin' pimped by a tramp.

hahaha.

 

[FlirtyandDirty]

Both of them. They both suck cocks together. They partners in cocksucking. hahaha. I caught them down this alley one night gettin' pimped by a tramp.

hahaha.

Oh well. As long as they enjoyed it. Sounds like maybe you were jealous.

 

[Satan]

Hell yeah - that ugly little goldie bitch could've sucked my cock instead - but then I saw her face - hahaha and the other one's a guy - i think - so fuck that shit - i ain't no queer.

hahaha

 

[Satan]

Jesus doesn't like me. Can't say I blame him really. I'm a piece of shit. hahaha

vvvv have to answer you here, because my post count is up. vvvv

yeah - i am having a bad day. This little lower-level demon stole my glasses at work in hell today. So you like serge?! hahaha - comeon - you dont wanna faggot who sucks tramps dicks now, do you?! Wouldn't you rather fool around with the ruler of all evil!? I can make yo' pussy-hole shoot vampire bats. hahaha. Can serge do that?

Nope.

hahaha

 

[FlirtyandDirty]

Hell yeah - that ugly little goldie bitch could've sucked my cock instead - but then I saw her face - hahaha and the other one's a guy - i think - so fuck that shit - i ain't no queer.

hahaha

Yes, Serge is a guy. And trust me, he is NOT gay!!


You seem to be having a very bad day. Do you want to talk about it?

 

[Serge]

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[FlirtyandDirty]

Jesus doesn't like me. Can't say I blame him really. I'm a piece of shit. hahaha

vvvv have to answer you here, because my post count is up. vvvv

yeah - i am having a bad day. This little lower-level demon stole my glasses at work in hell today. So you like serge?! hahaha - comeon - you dont wanna faggot who sucks tramps dicks now, do you?! Wouldn't you rather fool around with the ruler of all evil!? I can make yo' pussy-hole shoot vampire bats. hahaha. Can serge do that?

Nope.

hahaha

I did. But he was called my husband then! :lol: :lol: :lol:

 

[Widowmaker]

Guess my post touched a never eh little boy. With my Freudian hat on I would say that all the references to homosexuality suggest a latent homosexuality that is screaming to be acknowledged, the old stereotype you know.

And bear in mind it is a bit rich coming on here trying to be the tough guy insulting others left right and centre when your main claim to fame is being dumped four years ago by a girl in school and having spent your life since moping and whining about it. Grow up, get over it, take off the stupid makeup and move on with your life you sad loser.

Insulting others for their looks, threatening to come and chop them up with a chainsaw, gay insults and hitting on my partner (who frankly has far more taste than to even go there) is rather pathetic.

Again my post suggesting that the little white boy from the suburbs would rather spend time on the net talking about killing than doing anything would be right considering the response it got. Oh and how about we drag up some pictures of you morons from your website and plaster them everywhere else on the net. That way at least we can see just who you are.

I apologise for the fact that my post was nt up to your eloquent standards but am half asleep - has been a long day. Oh and is the raid you were talking about - the term raid conjured up images of thousands of posts from the "army" and not the three stooges making a handful of ridiculous posts. And all this was triggered by saying that Reidus was nt in love with that woman, damn you are not very tough rappers are you?

yeh, you know me so i need no introduction. I see you just couldn't help yourself but to ban me. Fair enough. but do me one favour - one that I think you suggested. Get an admin to delete that pic of my girl from my sig. I need not sport that anymore - she's mine again. That is all.

 

[Wayne-The-Pain]

Bin' banned a few times now me an' mr. Widowmaker here.
But you SPW Cuts will never be able to get rid of us for good. :twisted:

 

[Remus]

*goes on a banning spree* :lol:

 

[Remus]

we have a certain infintile indivdual trolling the forums and PM'ing and mini messaging people, these multiple accounts are being banned as of now, if you recieve messages from this user (or thier other "quickfire" usernames), just ignore them, children often get bored when ignored and move on :lol:

 

[Quixote]

*goes on a banning spree* :lol:

Thank god...