LaurenSanskritLove
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I'm sure some people would be able to relate to this, I only post this in hopes of making myself and others feel better knowing that there really are people out there who are going through the same problems and that, maybe we can help eachother through this...
I'm 19 and a half, my story is very similar to 'Hector's' forum post thank you for sharing that by the way
Been suffering from Agoraphobia for 2-3 years now, I personally believe it all started from low confidence and insecurity, I was a very nervous, paranoid child since as far back as I remember... I think it may be social disorders to add, I find it extremely hard to socialise with people of my generation, I find myself wanting to hide in a dark corner because I can not relate to anything they converse about. I find it easier speaking to older generations, even if it is just over the net... most of my net buddies are in their late 30's.. early 40's. I have practically lost contact with everyone I ever knew where I live, I have no friends here anymore, I live with my mother and boyfriend, which... I rarely speak to unless I have to, if I walk past them in the hallway for example... I'm very much alone in life but I have become so adapted to it, that i've lost touch with reality, the outside and the people out there... I've almost grown to hate it out of fear because I don't understand how it all works anymore. I've always had such a vivid imagination as well, so crawling up into my own little world seems like the easiest thing in the world. As a young teen, I was a very energic vibrant person but... after all these years a lot of me seems to have faded away, I am now an extremely quiet, blank, almost empty individual. I have trouble holding conversations, it seems like.. I don't have the energy to socialise anymore. I think it all stems from low confidence, depression, insecurity, paranoia... but its grown into such a big problem that i'm practically stuck in a hole that seems impossible to get out of. If anybody else is going through anything similar please, share with me, and maybe we can together come up with a solution, and support eachother.
I'm 19 and a half, my story is very similar to 'Hector's' forum post thank you for sharing that by the way
Been suffering from Agoraphobia for 2-3 years now, I personally believe it all started from low confidence and insecurity, I was a very nervous, paranoid child since as far back as I remember... I think it may be social disorders to add, I find it extremely hard to socialise with people of my generation, I find myself wanting to hide in a dark corner because I can not relate to anything they converse about. I find it easier speaking to older generations, even if it is just over the net... most of my net buddies are in their late 30's.. early 40's. I have practically lost contact with everyone I ever knew where I live, I have no friends here anymore, I live with my mother and boyfriend, which... I rarely speak to unless I have to, if I walk past them in the hallway for example... I'm very much alone in life but I have become so adapted to it, that i've lost touch with reality, the outside and the people out there... I've almost grown to hate it out of fear because I don't understand how it all works anymore. I've always had such a vivid imagination as well, so crawling up into my own little world seems like the easiest thing in the world. As a young teen, I was a very energic vibrant person but... after all these years a lot of me seems to have faded away, I am now an extremely quiet, blank, almost empty individual. I have trouble holding conversations, it seems like.. I don't have the energy to socialise anymore. I think it all stems from low confidence, depression, insecurity, paranoia... but its grown into such a big problem that i'm practically stuck in a hole that seems impossible to get out of. If anybody else is going through anything similar please, share with me, and maybe we can together come up with a solution, and support eachother.
