polishgirl
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Hi! Didn't properly introduce myself here so I guess this would be the right time I'm from Poland (haha that's hard to guess) my name is Karolina and I'm 16. I don't know if I'm a sociophobic but I suspect so. The thing with me is that I am seen as very open and talkative but inside I'm very insecure. And closed. Awkward. Afraid of everything.
But what I actually wanted to write to you about is my fear of rejection and it's consequences. I can't stand it anymore. I feel I'm not worth anything, everybody is better than me, everybody is more worthy of attention. And relationships with family are I guess well-kept but then again, very chaotic. Friends aree close and yet don't know a thing about me.
But guys and forming any sort of contact, not even mentioning relationships are very hard for me. I know I'm not ugly, quite the opposite but I feel like my personality pushes every guys away. I'm too scared to even talk to one, afraid that I will be not what he expected, I will be not enough for him to feel attracted to me.
I know I'm 16. A lot to learn, to experience but I feel that it's deeper than a teenager having problems with creating relationships.I fear this will be forever, I will never feel good enough. I keep comparing to others, I keep isolating from the contact, breaking it, shutting myself down. But I'm still alone now more than ever.
I know this is typical for a sociophobic and probably you will find this post very typical and boring. But I guess what I'm asking is, how do you guys cope with this? Will it fade away eventually? Will I be able to feel that I'm good enough for someone EVER in my life? I can't take the constant thoughts and worries in my head, that block me from doing almost everything naturally. Everything has to be planned.
But what I actually wanted to write to you about is my fear of rejection and it's consequences. I can't stand it anymore. I feel I'm not worth anything, everybody is better than me, everybody is more worthy of attention. And relationships with family are I guess well-kept but then again, very chaotic. Friends aree close and yet don't know a thing about me.
But guys and forming any sort of contact, not even mentioning relationships are very hard for me. I know I'm not ugly, quite the opposite but I feel like my personality pushes every guys away. I'm too scared to even talk to one, afraid that I will be not what he expected, I will be not enough for him to feel attracted to me.
I know I'm 16. A lot to learn, to experience but I feel that it's deeper than a teenager having problems with creating relationships.I fear this will be forever, I will never feel good enough. I keep comparing to others, I keep isolating from the contact, breaking it, shutting myself down. But I'm still alone now more than ever.
I know this is typical for a sociophobic and probably you will find this post very typical and boring. But I guess what I'm asking is, how do you guys cope with this? Will it fade away eventually? Will I be able to feel that I'm good enough for someone EVER in my life? I can't take the constant thoughts and worries in my head, that block me from doing almost everything naturally. Everything has to be planned.
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