sugaryberries
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I would like a boyfriend and I've never had one. I'm 19 and I hate it when people are like why haven't you had a boyfriend yet. And my parents make comments about it, but aside from other people, I would like to try dating. When I was in high school and guys would show interest in me I would never acknowledge it, even if I did like him.
I'm thinking about changing the way I dress- well at least not wearing jeans, t-shirt, and hat all the time. And wearing makeup and things like that to attract people. It seems like those girls get more attention. Or, maybe it's just their personality. I don't have a problem with talking to other people when they approach me per se, it's when I have to approach others that it is worse. I am taking steps to overcome that though.
Men do approach me, but it's more like 'men'. Guys that are too old for me like 25+. Maybe 'too old' is mean. How about [probably] way too experienced in life for me.
But, I feel that if I do that people will go 'Ah Ha! You want a boyfriend.' It's almost like I am ashamed of wanting one. But, I know it's not going to just fall into my lap because I want it.
People are supposed to date and fall in love, right? So I actually shouldn't feel 'ashamed' about it. And yet I deeply do.
I'm thinking about changing the way I dress- well at least not wearing jeans, t-shirt, and hat all the time. And wearing makeup and things like that to attract people. It seems like those girls get more attention. Or, maybe it's just their personality. I don't have a problem with talking to other people when they approach me per se, it's when I have to approach others that it is worse. I am taking steps to overcome that though.
Men do approach me, but it's more like 'men'. Guys that are too old for me like 25+. Maybe 'too old' is mean. How about [probably] way too experienced in life for me.
But, I feel that if I do that people will go 'Ah Ha! You want a boyfriend.' It's almost like I am ashamed of wanting one. But, I know it's not going to just fall into my lap because I want it.
People are supposed to date and fall in love, right? So I actually shouldn't feel 'ashamed' about it. And yet I deeply do.