Yes I feel the same way. I have found a lot of unique things about myself. I don't really blame God for my problems (I used to question him about why my life is like this though). But then I realized that it is really up to us because we were given free will. Think about it, if we really want to change then we'll do something about it. There are things that he can cure by miracle but there are also things that we must do by choice. All of the bad things that happened to us didn't happen because he wanted to, it's because he gave mankind free will, a freedom to choose either good or bad. When I remembered that, I knew that I'm about to change. I'm starting to face my fears little by little and from my experience I can tell you that fear is just an illusion. I know one day that it will be completely gone.
My only advice for you guys is to experience what it is that you fear. The only thing that I have which most people here don't is bravery. Bravery isn't being fearless, but to be able to look at your biggest fear in the eye. You need to stop wasting time before it's too late.
"A fearless life isn't a life in which a person just walks through what happens with no concern or care for what's taking place. A fearless life is a life that understands, that everything that's taking place has a purpose that serves something greater than whatever reaction a person is having to the event."
"What you experience in any given moment -- for how good it is how bad it is -- how encouraging or frightening it is, the character of every moment is determined by our understanding of the moment. So that fearlessness is a relationship that comes out an individual recognizing that in every given moment, he or she is being given exactly what they need to discover the truth about themselves and the life they have."
-Guy Finley
My only advice for you guys is to experience what it is that you fear. The only thing that I have which most people here don't is bravery. Bravery isn't being fearless, but to be able to look at your biggest fear in the eye. You need to stop wasting time before it's too late.
"A fearless life isn't a life in which a person just walks through what happens with no concern or care for what's taking place. A fearless life is a life that understands, that everything that's taking place has a purpose that serves something greater than whatever reaction a person is having to the event."
"What you experience in any given moment -- for how good it is how bad it is -- how encouraging or frightening it is, the character of every moment is determined by our understanding of the moment. So that fearlessness is a relationship that comes out an individual recognizing that in every given moment, he or she is being given exactly what they need to discover the truth about themselves and the life they have."
-Guy Finley