thequietone
Well-known member
I'm a little afraid to type this because I don't want to sound ungrateful when that's exactly what I am.
But is it really so much to ask to be left alone? :x
Every once and a while my friends who I have nothing in common with anymore will call me up when they're in town and try to get me to do social stuff with them. Everything is going fine in my life, I'm happy with it, I'm content, and then they have to come around and try to "fix" me again. All they end up doing is sending me into a panic and forcing me to avoid them and then feel guilty.
I feel okay about myself until I see them again. They reconfirm that I'm a freak.
If I could have change one thing about myself, I want to want friendship. It would make my mother and therapist and friends happy if I could WANT to connect with people. I feel like a bad person and a disappointment for not caring, for avoiding... But as of now, I really really would rather avoid it altogether. My life is fine if everyone would just leave me alone.
Can anybody relate to this?
But is it really so much to ask to be left alone? :x
Every once and a while my friends who I have nothing in common with anymore will call me up when they're in town and try to get me to do social stuff with them. Everything is going fine in my life, I'm happy with it, I'm content, and then they have to come around and try to "fix" me again. All they end up doing is sending me into a panic and forcing me to avoid them and then feel guilty.
I feel okay about myself until I see them again. They reconfirm that I'm a freak.
If I could have change one thing about myself, I want to want friendship. It would make my mother and therapist and friends happy if I could WANT to connect with people. I feel like a bad person and a disappointment for not caring, for avoiding... But as of now, I really really would rather avoid it altogether. My life is fine if everyone would just leave me alone.
Can anybody relate to this?