Nikki_18
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Has anyone ever felt like people you're around have no patience for you because you're so shy? :S
I don't know whether it's just me being paranoid but I've been with my boyfriend for over 15 months now and whenever I go out with him and he's with one of his mates or one of his mates comes round to his house when I'm there I'm sure they find me being so quiet tiring because they have to make an effort to talk to me :/
My boyfriend is quite loud, which is a bit odd but you know what they say about opposites attracting haha :] So whenever I'm in a social situation with him and one of his mates I feel like I'm going to be talked over because they're so loud. He tries not to make me feel left out and tries to include me in all the conversations he has, as do a couple of his friends but I still can't help but feel I have nothing to contribute or if I say something they'll just stare at me funny :S
It's really frustrating not being able to communicate with other people properly, especially after I've known them for a while. I think part of my problems must've came from having best friends that were at some point or another complete bastards to me when I was little. It seems like every best friend I've had, I've lost because they've went off with somebody else so I'm afraid of becoming close to people and getting socially involved.
Like when I was gaining some confidence, this girl who was supposed to be my best friend was analysing everything I said or did, it felt like I was under the microscope all the time but since then I've not been able to build up the confidence I had back then. I've stopped speaking to her since early this year but I find it very difficult to talk to other people. It's like I have this voice in the back of my head that says "if she was your best friend and she thought that about you, what's this person going to think?"
I've started college over again this year and I find it very difficult to mix because everyone's so loud and I panic :S It's really difficult and I think about it far too much :[ I just wanted to see if I wasn't the only one feeling this way, so I can feel like I'm not so alone :S I feel like no one I know really understands how I feel in social situations, they don't understand the nature of what I'm dealing with so I feel so misunderstood a lot of the time :[
I don't know whether it's just me being paranoid but I've been with my boyfriend for over 15 months now and whenever I go out with him and he's with one of his mates or one of his mates comes round to his house when I'm there I'm sure they find me being so quiet tiring because they have to make an effort to talk to me :/
My boyfriend is quite loud, which is a bit odd but you know what they say about opposites attracting haha :] So whenever I'm in a social situation with him and one of his mates I feel like I'm going to be talked over because they're so loud. He tries not to make me feel left out and tries to include me in all the conversations he has, as do a couple of his friends but I still can't help but feel I have nothing to contribute or if I say something they'll just stare at me funny :S
It's really frustrating not being able to communicate with other people properly, especially after I've known them for a while. I think part of my problems must've came from having best friends that were at some point or another complete bastards to me when I was little. It seems like every best friend I've had, I've lost because they've went off with somebody else so I'm afraid of becoming close to people and getting socially involved.
Like when I was gaining some confidence, this girl who was supposed to be my best friend was analysing everything I said or did, it felt like I was under the microscope all the time but since then I've not been able to build up the confidence I had back then. I've stopped speaking to her since early this year but I find it very difficult to talk to other people. It's like I have this voice in the back of my head that says "if she was your best friend and she thought that about you, what's this person going to think?"
I've started college over again this year and I find it very difficult to mix because everyone's so loud and I panic :S It's really difficult and I think about it far too much :[ I just wanted to see if I wasn't the only one feeling this way, so I can feel like I'm not so alone :S I feel like no one I know really understands how I feel in social situations, they don't understand the nature of what I'm dealing with so I feel so misunderstood a lot of the time :[
