LilMissTragic
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Ok, i thought my Sp wasn't so bad so thought I'd go enrol in Wuzoquan Shaolin martial arts, something I have always wanted to do. At home i was feeling brave and thought 'Yeh, this will be easy'. My fiance is going to do it so its not like i'll be on my own in a room full of strangers. So, we went along, talked to the instructor, I did that part pretty well, then he told us to sit in to watch his class before we decide to enrol.
We went in and guess what...I went cold with fear, even though there was only 9 people in the room. I felt so out of place, my panic rose a bit which hasn't happened in ages and I just felt like crying, though i didn't. I sat there, anxiously for 2 whole hours watching this class, fidgeting, feeling a little claustrophobic. I just wanted to run but knowing if I did i would look even more of an idiot. When the class was done I practially ran past the instructor, luckily my fiance had already told him about my SP. I havent felt that ridiculous in ages. Just when i thought i was doing pretty good.
Then again, when i got home and really thought about it, I congratulated myself at even going in the first place, I realised that even though sick with fear, I sat there for 2 whole hours in a room of strangers. Ok, so I wont be going back but I though that really did account for something. I guess I'm not quite as ready as i thought I was.
Oh, Well...next adventure...lol
We went in and guess what...I went cold with fear, even though there was only 9 people in the room. I felt so out of place, my panic rose a bit which hasn't happened in ages and I just felt like crying, though i didn't. I sat there, anxiously for 2 whole hours watching this class, fidgeting, feeling a little claustrophobic. I just wanted to run but knowing if I did i would look even more of an idiot. When the class was done I practially ran past the instructor, luckily my fiance had already told him about my SP. I havent felt that ridiculous in ages. Just when i thought i was doing pretty good.
Then again, when i got home and really thought about it, I congratulated myself at even going in the first place, I realised that even though sick with fear, I sat there for 2 whole hours in a room of strangers. Ok, so I wont be going back but I though that really did account for something. I guess I'm not quite as ready as i thought I was.
Oh, Well...next adventure...lol