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Hi, I have AvPd. Usually I am fine around people I feel "safe" around, this including most of my co-workers that are much older than me or already involed in relationships.
My main problem occurs with a couple females that are single and obviously interested in me. People even tell me they are, which just makes me totally embarassed and I find some excuse to make which makes it ok for me to "not like" them even though I really do.
I have spent the last two weeks trying to save up the nerve to just talk normally to a girl at my job but everytime I get the chance I stand there and say NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL and my stomach is literally turning knots. I swear I have an ulcer forming and I'm only 24.
I don't know why I am posting this, I guess I just can't keep it inside anymore and what's sad is that posing anonymously on an internet forum makes me feel like im exposing myself to the entire world when honestly maybe dozens of people will read this post at maximum.
I guess i'm at one of the "low points" of a depression spiral and want to express myself, I don't want to think this will continue to go on but the scariest thing to me is reading posts by people who are double my age and yet still experience the exact same things I do.
I dunno what else to say. Thanks for reading.
My main problem occurs with a couple females that are single and obviously interested in me. People even tell me they are, which just makes me totally embarassed and I find some excuse to make which makes it ok for me to "not like" them even though I really do.
I have spent the last two weeks trying to save up the nerve to just talk normally to a girl at my job but everytime I get the chance I stand there and say NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL and my stomach is literally turning knots. I swear I have an ulcer forming and I'm only 24.
I don't know why I am posting this, I guess I just can't keep it inside anymore and what's sad is that posing anonymously on an internet forum makes me feel like im exposing myself to the entire world when honestly maybe dozens of people will read this post at maximum.
I guess i'm at one of the "low points" of a depression spiral and want to express myself, I don't want to think this will continue to go on but the scariest thing to me is reading posts by people who are double my age and yet still experience the exact same things I do.
I dunno what else to say. Thanks for reading.