DYiNG-iNSiDE
Well-known member
ok im just gonna complain and whine 4 a little bit if u dont mind lol im just RLLLLY depressed lately and dont see ANY point to going on w/ my life i just keep telling myself itll get better but ive been telling myself that 4ever. and my life could be good if i didnt have HORRIBLE HORRIBLE sa its like i dont even function like every1 else nemore. i remeber when i used 2 be normal and happy- those where the days. lifes got almost unbearable lately and after being gone 4rm school over a month i gotta go back to day after tomorrow w/ all new classes just thinking about it makes me shake and feel faint like. ppl w/ out SA take it soooo 4granted! i know i did when i didnt have it. and my moms the only person i can talk 2 about it and she doesnt understand AT ALL and acts like i can make it go away if i wanted 2 or something or that im just making it up. but she has depression and rlly understands that. and i thought since im prob gonna be shaking and sweating and red faced all day and not say a word 2 ne1 monday mabye i could get xanax's perscribed 2 me so i could take em just when i had 2 present something or a 1st day or something. but she said NO and wouldnt listen or look at any of the stuff i looked up she said there addictive and the dr wont even perscribe them 2 kids. idk i just feel like ill be stuck in my head till the day i die always worrying and never getting 2 live life. and so sorry if i didnt use "proper english" i know that annoys alot of u 4 some reason but this is how ive always type and im not trying 2 make this perfect just get all this out in the open. wow this is the longest post ive ever posted