realistic: graduating school in 2013. move to a city that offers group CBT, and try to beat this thing while working to pay off my massive student loan. And after a couple of years of doing that I'd be a free, fully functional human being =)
fantasy: magically recover from SA while I'm still in uni; find my soulmate; live and have fun like normal people, even if that means graduating school is gonna take a lot longer.
