SilentAndShy
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My aspiration from a career point of view, has been to be a journalist and since I graduated from 2009, I've been longing for an opportunity.
Recently diagnosing myself as suffering from SA and leaving my job, I decided to focus more on my writing and I wrote an article for this newspaper which has a very niche theme about them. So, the editor invited me for a meeting to discuss freelance opportunities but also said, there was a vacancy available but I was primarily focusing on the former.
I went today and immediately she lifted my confidence by talking positively about me, and I felt, in reflection (in the "post-mortem" that SA sufferers do after an event) that I hadn't really imposed myself but anyway, she offered me a paid position! I was taken aback completely and probably blushed abit and looked startled but luckily didn't use it against me and I wanted to say yes but I erred on the side of caution and she said to think about it but I've emailed her accepting it and will call tomorrow to confirm.
But now I've got it - my doubts are creeping in. I'm thinking about these small practicalities of it (it's far from my home but accessible via public transport but I have a car but with my car, I suffer from driving related anxiety so doubt myself being able to drive there and back), and also mingling with my team which luckily being a smaller paper, is about 15 people.
My mind, majoritively, is positive but how do I weed out these small doubts?
I'm happy as I wanted to use 2013 as a year for my career and it's paid off but a long way to go as it involves hard work which I'm ready for! (And need as I'm getting extremely lazy lol!)
Recently diagnosing myself as suffering from SA and leaving my job, I decided to focus more on my writing and I wrote an article for this newspaper which has a very niche theme about them. So, the editor invited me for a meeting to discuss freelance opportunities but also said, there was a vacancy available but I was primarily focusing on the former.
I went today and immediately she lifted my confidence by talking positively about me, and I felt, in reflection (in the "post-mortem" that SA sufferers do after an event) that I hadn't really imposed myself but anyway, she offered me a paid position! I was taken aback completely and probably blushed abit and looked startled but luckily didn't use it against me and I wanted to say yes but I erred on the side of caution and she said to think about it but I've emailed her accepting it and will call tomorrow to confirm.
But now I've got it - my doubts are creeping in. I'm thinking about these small practicalities of it (it's far from my home but accessible via public transport but I have a car but with my car, I suffer from driving related anxiety so doubt myself being able to drive there and back), and also mingling with my team which luckily being a smaller paper, is about 15 people.
My mind, majoritively, is positive but how do I weed out these small doubts?
I'm happy as I wanted to use 2013 as a year for my career and it's paid off but a long way to go as it involves hard work which I'm ready for! (And need as I'm getting extremely lazy lol!)
